Crazy thing called Love (LS2)

Chapter 26

Its already 3am and I finished 2 chapters! So far, this is the longest chapter I wrote with almost 3 thousand words. Enjoy!

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Blown by the Wind

Sa buhay, may mga bagay tayong kailangan gawin at tanggapin. May mga bagay na kahit gaano pa natin ka gusto ay hindi pwede mapasa atin.

Ganun siguro talaga.

Hindi lahat ay nakukuha natin, na hindi lahat ay nakatadhanang manatili para sa atin. Parang isang pagkakataon, minsan ay nandyan at kung palalampasin ay maaring mawala at mapunta sa iba.

Chances are like time, you'll only realize how precious it is when it was already gone. Gone like how the wind blows, untouched and lost. Funny to think how fate desguise itself as the wind, moving all over the world, watching everyone, whispering to them, and taking every chances that was not granted. Making everyone miserable for every regrets and bad decisions.

And now I realize how playful fate may be. To me, to everyone. Maybe these are God's way of challenging His people. To see how one will conquer its quest. If one has the will to survive or just... let it self be drown by the struggles along the way.

I laugh at my self. Gosh! I'm not even at half of my life but I already have thoughts like these. But, does it even matter? Does the amount of experience and how long a person already live his life are the basis for having some deep thoughts like these? I think not. It's how you accept and learn from your experiences. It is how you embrace and challenge yourself from your imperfections.

And my imperfection is my flaws. These are one of my weaknesses that gave me strength.

And I believe that this is part of it, to let the wind blew the chance of being happy with the only boy I have love so far. But... will we be happy, knowing that we are in between a twisted story of the past between the important people of our lives? I doubt that.

Tipid na ngiti ang ginawad ko sa kaklase sa isang subject nang makitang naghihintay siya ng jeep sa labas ng eskwelahan. Malawak na ngiti at kaway ang sinukli niya at agad naman akong nagtuloy-tuloy sa paglalakad pa uwi.

It been days-- 3 days to be exact, after what I saw at Missy Bon Bon. Stupid as it seem but after watching the double doors closed behind Kris and that girl that day gave me alot of realizations to summon. I was again doubting my decisions. I was again regretting my decision. I am questioning myself. Again. And its been like that for days now.

Nakakabuang na makipag away sa sarili ah. Ewan ko nalang talaga.

Unang liko ko patungo sa tatawiran na kabilang kalye ay may namataan ako.  Kunot noong bumagal ang paglalakad ko. Papalit palit ang pagbaling at nanliit pa ang mga mata upang makita iyon ng maigi.

Napahinto na talaga at napanguso nang makitang may kung anong komosyong nangyayare sa di kalayuan ko. A lot of people were crowding a certain area, some were even in panic. Bulungan at kaniya kaniyang sigawan. May dalawang sasakyan ng police ang nasa gilid nito. Ang ilang police ay pinipigilan ang ilang taong lumapit sa kinukumpulan sa gitna, ang iba naman ay may kung sinong tinatawagan. Ano bang nangyare?

I heared an old woman shouting to someone to call for an ambulance. May naaksidente? Curiousity beat me that I immediately went to the commotion.

I held tight unto the strap of my bag and heaved a sigh.

Ngunit nang unti-unti na akong napapalapit ay unti-unti ko na rin nakita ang pamilyar na kulay ng sasakyan. Ang sasakyang umuusok ang unahang bahagi at patay sindi ang pulang ilaw sa likuran nito. And sasakyang nakabunggo sa isang napakalaking puno ng Baleti.