Do you remember all the good and perfect times we've had since I was 14? Those were the days when we were careless about what people think if we had each other close. We enjoyed the small little things like new music, old music, inspiring movies, beers, laughing at people, random chats, the park we always used to go to, all the friends we made and sharing our lives with each other. It was me, watching you skate and you, watching me take pictures of everything pretty much. I know you loved photography too, I do remember the beautiful sunset pictures we used to take.
Do you remember when you broke another guy's skateboard just so you will make me laugh? Poor guy, he could barely afford another one. But I felt important like i finally matter to someone, nobody made me laugh like you did and i know how important that is to you.
Do you remember when I bought you a Vans hat and we were missing each other so bad that when we got to see each other you brought me some cake made by you and everyone was excited to see you but you ran past them straight into my arms? It's one of my favorite lifetime core memories, and you usually don't see a skater bake but i know mine did, i got lucky there for a second.
We've been through a lot and it took me a lot of time to go out with you and you almost got tired of trying but I'm glad we did. You helped me open up my eyes to so much more. Thanks for never giving up, you changed the whole trajectory of my life in the best way possible and gave me the warmest feels, being loved for real for the first fime no matter what.
But I also remember the day that it was over and the gift you gave me and how creative you've always been. We didn't have much but we felt rich. Even if it was over I was thankful I had you at one point and I was thankful that you were once mine and I was once yours and I hope you won't forget me.
I also remember that 4 years passed and we randomly met each other again. We were naturally close to each other, I was again in awe of you and you were in awe of me and we started chatting again. For a while. I started having a crush on you again but I felt like I have grown up too much in the past 4 years that I couldn't restart what we once dropped. Our friendship was enough to give me a fresh restart but I learned to let it go and try to achieve what i needed and wanted from my life and it HURT cause I always wanted you everywhere at any time.
So I wrote this to let you know that even if I live on another continent and I started following you on Instagram but you blocked me probably, you'll forever have a place in my heart. A secret, hidden place that I know I will never get to reach.
So please take care of you because I know you're kinda messed up. And I know I always managed to get you back on your feet and you always found the silence you needed in me.
With a missing heart,
your favorite blue eyed girl.
