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chapter 2 - Was It Worth All This?
Claude slowly awoke with a loud groan. His body was aching and sore all over, especially along his spine. After a few calming moment he smiled softly, rolling over just to have the smile wiped from his face, "I knew it was too good to be true..." he whispered to himself, feeling a lump form in his throat. He felt so.. Dirty.
He looked all around, trying to see if there was any sign or a note for him or anything to say the demon he loved would be back, "not a thing.." His voice was strained as his vision became foggy.
He stood up, wincing in pain as he did, and wrapped the black, fluffy blanket around his spent body. He walked down stairs quickly, going to the music room. That room had always calmed and relaxed him no matter how bad the situation was. It was a place to just let everything out. He whimpered sadly and plopped down onto the floor, letting the blanket fall off of his shoulders, his soft flesh open to the cold air. He didn't even try to suppress his loud sobs.. he was alone anyway so why should he care?
Claude sat silently in a pile of his own self pity and sadness, having absolutely no intension of moving whatsoever. The seconds slowly ticked by, turning into minutes then hours as he stared blankly at the ceiling. He tried to keep his mind blank and thoughtless, not wanting to think on how dirty and used he felt.
He wished he had someone to comfort him... To hold him.. Stare down at him longingly with his crimson eyes- no! He mustn't think such things. Sebastian already showed how he felt about the golden eyed demon, making it perfectly clear that he felt no regard for him at all when he left him, used and alone.
Suddenly there was a soft knock at the front door, shaking Claude from his thoughts. He wrapped the blanket tighter around him so his body was covered and went to answer the door, "please be Sebastian.." He whispered to himself. A small sprout of hope blossomed in his chest just to be crushed when he opened the door to reveal his long time friend, "Hey Undy.." he whispered.
The gray haired reaper took in Claude's puffy, red eyes and his naked body, "what happened?" he asked, becoming quickly worried over his good friend.
The raw emotions in undertakers voice hit a soft spot in Claude's heart and his bottom lip quickly began quivering. Sobs rack his body as tears made steady streams along his cheeks, "h-he.. left after we had.." He trailed off, not wanting to say the terrible mistake he made. He cried loudly as undertaker pulled him into his arms while Claude buried his face in undy's neck and sobbed pathetically.
Undertaker carefully moved Claude onto the couch, sitting down and laying Claude's head onto his lap, stroking his dark hair soothingly as he whispered sweet words to him, "don't worry sweet heart, he isn't worth your tears. He didn't deserve someone as amazing as you." Claude wraps his arm around Undy's waist, holding him tightly, "let it out.. Undy's got you.. You'll never be alone as long as I'm here.."
Claude turned his body, facing undertaker and pressing his face into his stomach, not wanting Undy to see him in such a weak state, "I th-thought he actually cared..." he stuttered softly, "h-he said he wanted to be mates but he just.. used me and left like I was some piece of trash!" he cried unattractively into undertakers belly, even though he found great comfort in the reapers presence, it wasn't quite enough to stop him from balling his eyes out, "I loved him.." Claude said, his deep voice muffled by Undy's shirt.
Undertaker nodded slowly, "Its alright darling.. these things happen, I'm sure he just didnt realize what an amazing person you are." his fingers gently run through the demon's black hair, brushing it away from his face. Before Claude could reply soft lyrics began falling from undertakers lips, the sweet melody instantly soothing Claude physically and emotionally. Undertaker knew Claude liked it when he sang to him so he figured that now would be a good time to do so.
"Thank you.." Claude whispered as his sobs lowers to soft sniffles and his golden eyes began closing. After a few more moments of Undertakers gentle voice he drifted of into a restless sleep
*****
Sebastian's eyes groggily opened as the effect of the alcohol slowly wore off. Demons had a high tolerance to alcohol and drugs. unless they had enough to kill a regular human or even more. any move he made was slowly and uncoordinated, his mind still lagging with the effects of the alcohol.
His blood shot eyes stared up at the ceiling as he tried to erase the memory of the best night of his life and the worst mistake he ever made. Oh how he missed the golden eyes demon...
He regretted the moment when he sat up and put on his clothes instead of turning and wrapping his arms around Claude's waist and holding him close.. He regretted walking out of that door instead of kissing Claude's soft lips.. He wanted to see his smiling face again.. he wanted to make love to him again and again until Claude was convinced of his feelings that Sebastian didn't even know he had. He wanted to be the one who made Claude smile and laugh instead of cry like he was undoubtedly doing. Oh how his heart ached for the other demon. He wished he hadn't been so stupid and ignorant.
Sebastian curled into a tight ball, his knees pressed to his chest and a bottle of strong alcohol in his hand. He pulled the bottle to his lips, not liking that he was beginning to think straight. Wincing slightly at the burning in his throat, he continued drinking until his vision grew blurry once more.. Weather it was from the alcohol or tears he couldn't tell.
He drank more and more until the world and his mind finally went black, putting his weary body at ease.
*****
Claude slowly awoke a few hours later, his golden eyes traveling up to see familiar surroundings. He was in his bed room, though he didn't remember how he got there. All he can remember is that undertaker came to see him. He wondered if he was still there. As if sensing his thoughts Undertaker quietly walked into Claude's room and saw he was waking up so he asked softly, "How are you holding up?"
Claude sighed sadly, weakly shrugging his shoulders, "as well as I can I suppose."
Undertaker nodded slowly, understanding that Claude wasn't going to just be okay over night. He needed time, love, and lots of understanding, "well," he paused for a moment to hold up a silver tray, "I made cookies."
Claude's ears pricked at the word 'cookies.' He narrowed his eyes slightly as his mouth slowly puckered questionably, "what kind?" He asked slowly, not wishing to get his hopes up for his favor kind in case they weren't.
"Blood, of course. I know you don't like human food so I made these special for you." He smiled and placed the tray on Claude's lap, with some tea as well.
Claude smiled warmly up at his long-haired friend, "you always know how to make me feel better. Thank you Undy." He gave him a quick hug before he began eating the deep red colored cookies one at a time.
The older of the two smiled as he watched his heartbroken friend eat. He knew Claude wasn't even close to being happy, mearly a momentary distraction, but it was a start and Undertaker was willing to help for as long as he needed.
*****
A mixture of alcohol and pure stupidity had Sebastian stumbling for his clothes that were scattered across the floor. He had a strong need to see the person he had abandoned not even 24hours ago.
He pulling on his clothes as best he could when it felt as if sand bags were tied to his arms preventing almost any movement. But with what most people call sheer luck he was able to dress himself, though in a less than mediocre fashion. His hair was disheveled just like his shirt and pants. one pant leg rode up his calf while the other was tucked into his shoe. He had just enough sense to throw on a sweater to cover up some of his messy appearance.
He continued stumbling around until he finally made it to the door, looking like a man on a mission, which was partially true.
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