Brown Dwarf

Prologue

"Sometimes we shut the door on the things we love because we know. We know if it was right, they wouldn't be on the other side."

-Jm Storm

Listen to: Violet Evergarden opening piano version by Theister
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Staring at room filled with music equipment, the hallway is empty, I can hear no sound except this very familiar sound.

Piano

Someone was playing piano in the music class, it was a blonde-haired guy. Maybe he was from the school orchestra, trying to practice for next month competition.

My body seems to move by itself, I want to run, leaving this place, but it seems my body forces me to stay still. Every second of the moment feels like a torment, my body feels hurt.

So much.

The music was strangling my body, and i can't do anything about it. Then it keeps getting beautiful and more beautiful, and electric shock touch every inches of my body, especially my heart,

My heart feels so hurt; it's like having a heart attack. I kept grabbing my chest, squeezing tight my shirt. I wish this feeling gone. The air feels thinner, and it keeps becoming much thinner,

Why did i feel this way?

I was sure that I decided not to care; this is not real; This is not how you supposed to feel right now. Get a hold of yourself, Chelsea, you know this isn't right.

When the sound of the piano getting louder, my grip is getting tighter too, and so does the pain, I can't describe how hurt it is, my breathing became unstable, a smell of iron entering my nose, and a snake sensation of pain runs to my brain, making a headache. I knew these are not a good sign.

I turn back my body,  and the strength which holds my legs left my body; i fell on my knees, my vision gets blurry, i tried to gather all my strength again, i know i'm not weak.

The moment I'm about to stand up, something warm dropping to my palms. I looked at it with a disbelieve; I touched my cheek to make sure what I thought, and it was what I thought it is.

Another pain stabs my heart, it was the feeling when you see someone you love cried, it may sound stupid because it means i have a different me. But it was how it felt like.

I wiped it, clenching my hands, and finally stood up.

I run.

The gravitations feel so heavy. My body feels like gaining 2 pounds from every steps. I want to scream; I feel really upset.

The hallway turned into a blur, a vision of mixed color of blue, yellow and green, a random pattern appear in front of my eyes,

Please stop this...

Please...

Please...

Make it stop, please...

My eyes getting heavier and heavier, I need to find a place to be alone. My mind is chaos; right now I can even hear my own thoughts.

I see a light; The end of the hallway is in front of my eyes. Without hesitation, I pull of my every strength i have left on my body and went to the door. But the universe tells other...

I just wish this day, I don't need to meet with anyone, but what can you do if the universe twists it.

We fell together; I hear a groan. A quick change from anger to surprise slip through his face, I knew he wanted to speak something, but before that happen I stood up, try my best to cover my face. I don't want someone sees me like this. Not in this kind of state.

After that, all I can remember is the world crumbled into pieces.