CRUSH (Short Story)

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Sorry for the cliffhanger :)

L I A

As I'm lying on my bed. Crying. Someone texted me

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Benj

Lia, thank you for the memories. But I don't think after this we will be hella friend. I'm sorry to ruin our friendship. Lia, always remember that I liked you. And I always will. It hurts Lia. It hurts. Knowing that I didn't do anything wrong, but still you just dumped me. For twice of the time in my whole shit life, it hurts. I thought that now is real, but only a thought. Lia, I don't know what to say. I don't know how to explain my thoughts. But pleaaase, for the last time, can I call you? You don't have to speak. You just have to listen

He texted.

Whatdapackingtape! I wanna shout and let this feeling be heard! Craaaaaaaap! Fck. Sht. I HATE MY LIFE! THIS IS JUST A PIECE OF FCKNG SHIT! A FCKNG SHT! A FCKNG SHIIIIT! BULLSHIT!

*phone ringing*

And I accepted it

"Lia,...

Omygosh! He's crying. I sniffed

you crying? Stop please stop. I don't want you to cry

For all the things I've done and the damaged I've made. Still he's there.

can I ask? Can it all be a piece of my fckng nightmares? Pleaseee! I'm pleading.

I heard him still crying. And now I'm also crying. Pucha kanina pa pala ako umiiyak. Magang maga na mata ko.

hindi ko alam kung paano ko to ieexplain. But I just want you to know that I'm in deep pain.

Hindi ko gustong kaawaan mo ako, pero may tanong lang ako. Gusto mo ba talaga akong mawala sa buhay mo?

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And now I'm speechless.

I just only need your yes or your no. But I know it's not good to expect, but I am. Please say no.

Umiiyak nanaman siya. Hwag na please. Hwag na.

Alliaree Tanayo, sa huling pagkakataon, itatanong ko ito sayo. Do you really want me to not be in your life anymore?

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I'm sorry

I said. Then humagulgol na ako sa iyak.

"goodb.." *toot toot*

I ended the call.

I don't want to hear his goodbye.

I don't want to hear him cry more

I don't want to feel (eventhough I friggin know) that he's in deep pain....

And lastly, I don't want to be a part of his world anymore.

Well on this case, it's different.

He did nothing.

But still, I left him.

He only wanted and maybe wants the best for me

But still, I hurt him

And for all the efforts he made

still, I didn't appreciated it.

Well for the matter of fact, I did appreciate, but I don't know. I really don't know what's processing on my sht mind.

I remember the time I asked God to let me have him.

I was so desperate.

So obssessed

and so madly deeply truly in love with him.

But what did he do? He did nothing.

Also I remember the time when we were friends. Best of friends. He told me about his first love.

I told him that she was so blind to see the real effort of this man behind those times.

I told him that she was so dull.

But I guess now, we're just the same.

We just caused pain to the one who truly loved or loves us.

I didn't know what will happen next day or the other month.

Please just help me God. I don't know what to do. And I know, You know what's best for me.

Then I fell back to sleep, with my tears flowing in my damn wasted face

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T H E E N D ! ~

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Xoxo,

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