Random Thoughts

I'm back and questioning a thousand things at once

I've always been Christian and believed in God and Jesus and all that but lately..... I've been feeling a sort of disconnect with religion. I don't know. So many people say that people like me are all sinning and going to Hell but I don't think I can believe that. Of course I can still be Christian and have my own thoughts and beliefs within this religion but I've been feeling a disconnect with the whole Heaven and Hell, good and bad, type thing. I don't like church no matter how many times I go to different ones I always end up feeling weird and uncomfortable and sometimes even completely zoning out. But then there's also the whole Heaven and Hell aspect, basically saying if you live your life full of goodness and kindness then you'll go to Heaven but if you live your life with practically any badness or cruelty then you'll go to Hell. Good and bad are all based around a person's morals, they aren't set things. Yes there are many things that are universally seen as bad, such as murder and r*pe, but there are so many things that are considered good or things that some people see as bad and others don't agree. If I heard of someone being murdered I would be upset, but if a pedophile or serial r*pist was murdered for being either of those things then I would probs move on with my life and think that they got what was coming to them. There are so many things that people seem to be unable to agree on and I don't know. I don't know how I feel about religion anymore my dudes.