Paralysed

Understand

(A/N)

There are a few thing you gotta know before you start reading.

'a random text' = that the person is thinking.
*a random text* =  that this is a movement, sound or a change of P.OV
P.O.V = point of view
~a random text~ = a change of setting, time or flashback

This story won't include gruesome parts until a specific part, I'll include a warning right before the gruesome part happens. This is for the people who want to read my story but can't handle scary things.

Before we start the story I just want to warn you guys about this depressing story. Don't read the parts that will come if you are highly sensitive. This story contains characters who suffer many mental illnesses and might turn as a psychopath:/ so please don't read it if you are highly sensitive.

This story contains strong language, The words won't be censored unless I feel that it should be.

This story is going to a depressing story, so buckle up we're going on a ride to sadness.

I was worried about what would happen today, will I make any friends?

Today was the day that I transferred to M.I academy, that was my first mistake...

I was excited and worried on my way to school, anxiety had kicked me in the stomach.

Will I make any friends? What if everybody hates me? What if I'm bullied?, and the teachers join?! Many questions ran through my mind, never stopping. It continued until I made it to school because then it became worse.

'Life is too hard, I should just stay home today' I thought as I turned around and faced the path I came from. I hesitantly took a step back.

'No! This is my opportunity to change my life! Away with this cowardly life, I'm going to face reality now!' I fought with myself trying to choose what to do.

As on queue one of the female students greeted me, she had long blonde hair.

'I can't do this! I'm just a useless person wondering if I should go to school even when I'm already at school!' I exclaimed facing toward the building but I wasn't actually saying anything so toward the students it looked like I was being crazy.

Remember what Ayaka stated! Ayaka was my best friend, she was the only person who was always on my side. Everybody else left me, betrayed me, hurt me. She was the only person who mattered. She told me to not worry about anything, easy thing for her to say. She was the most easygoing person anybody could ever meet.

Everybody thought she was a goddess but little do they know. Ayaka also has some weaknesses of course only I know of them since I spent 9 years with her!

I was worried about leaving her what if they all use her kindness! She told me that worry too much but I didn't have to change. She liked me for who I was, I didn't understand.

Nobody could ever like someone like me. I was just blessed to have her in my life.

Once I stepped onto campus, I started to panic again despite that I just remembered Ayaka's words.

I really am cursed aren't I...
*??? P.O.V*

Today was normal like any other day, only the rumour that we would get a transfer student today was different.

The whole class was hyped discussing over if it was a girl or a boy, is s/he hot?, which country would s/he be from?

I could care any less about what my idiotic classmates are doing, I continued to read my book waiting for class to start.