its working

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days of skipping meals eating as little as an apple a day,
i noticed changes
i shrieked in joy as i had lost weight
however my thighs still touched
and my arms weren't as slim as i wanted
"empty. i just needed to be empty."
weeks of starving, stomach growling i had gathered up all of my remaining energy
i weakly smiled, showing my teeth.
but that voice,
"it's not enough."
i went on a little bit more with the skipping meals
hearing my stomach growl in satisfaction
every time i ate something as little as a carrot
i would curse at myself
scolding
yelling
screaming
crying
just for eating
just for living

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