LOVING TWO

Chapter Forty-Seven: The Hide Out (Pt.2)

I looked towards the window and noticed how lucky we were to see such a mesmerizing view.

"Your eyes look amazing under this moonlight" he said to me as I turned to look at him. He was already gazing at me. My cheeks felt red as I nervously turned my face to the side avoiding to see him. "Um I should go make you a warm tea it might help you feel better".

James- Don't get up..please..

He was acting in such a sweet loving way. I wasn't use to him being so polite. His regular self would've forcedly pinned me down. I guess his weak condition had to do a lot with this new side of him.

Jazmin- James this isn't right..

James- We aren't doin anything wrong..

Couldn't he see the strong effect he provoked in me by having him so close? I was able to feel his hot breath on the side of my neck while his arm was touching mine. Which only provoked shivers all over my body.

James- I fucked up..I know..

Jazmin- (Well that was totally unexpected..Even though I knew what he meant by saying that I acted as if I didn't)...What do you mean?

James- I basically pushed you into his arms..It's my fault..

Jazmin- James don't do this..Not now..

James- If not now then when?

Jazmin- How about never?..It's in the past..I rather not talk about things that happened so long ago..

James- I know I hurt you Jazmin and if I could go back in time..I would do things differently.

Jazmin- You did what you did and I prefer not to talk about it..

It wasn't because I didn't want to hear that apology my heart needed so badly but because there was so much pain inside me that resurfaced once I saw him again. Talking about the subject would only reopen wounds I thought had healed within time already.

James- I don't expect you to forgive me but I do hope you give me a chance to try and mend some damage I caused you..

I couldn't hold onto everything I was bottling inside much longer. After he had the audacity to make such request I bursted out in anger.

Jazmin- How dare you ask that!!

James- (There was the pain she felt inside..I kept poking on purpose..I needed her to yell at me and tell me what a shitty person I had been to her..If she didn't take all her anger and disappointment out on me she would never truly be happy..She needed this)

Jazmin- For so long I have yearned for this moment to come!!..But now..I can't even look at you!..I don't want you near me James!..I hate you!! ..I..I..