just crap

ten

On the roof, you are standing all alone
Just as if you were caught in a daze,
I know, “I know, all the love we had before,
guess I won't ever find it anymore,”

They were both childhood friends, they being two fifteen-year-olds Neku Sakuraba and Yoshiya Kiryu, whose nickname was Joshua.

Always close to each other, always together since young. Even then, Neku could not help but be sorry for Joshua for having such a depressing friend.

Neku had been bullied in school, no one believed in him anyway, the teachers and counsellors, no one. Maybe except Joshua, who knew he would come up to the rooftop.

[Broken hearts with spoken words]
[Let's just end everything already]
["I can't live up to anyone's expectations"]

Neku had been bullied in school, no one believed in him anyway, the teachers and counsellors, no one. Maybe except Joshua, who knew he would come up to the rooftop.

[Hoping for this kind of grey everyday]
(Words won't come out, they stay and get in the way)
[Singing to death (Words won't come out, they stay and get in the way)]
[Are lies what we were both wishing for?]
[Aah, I'll choke out a transparent elegy]

As usual, Neku was standing at the edge of the rooftop on top of their school.

"Come back," Joshua said with his comforting voice. Neku turned his head around, making sure it was only him, and then he walked towards Joshua.

Listening to the words I swallow down.

The world stops spinning ‘round
Catching a breath, I stroll through town

Both Joshua and Neku had lost their parents, and yet Neku, the one who looked more timid, was the one getting treated like this.

"Look, aren't the stars beautiful tonight?"

Below the twinkling stars that fill the sky
Inside this lonely night
It's hard to stifle all my cries.

Neku always kept an advice that Joshua told him, if he was once again upset.

Just think back the memories they once had together.

Forgetting everything that happened yesterday,
I still can't remember what
Tomorrow?
Was??
Supposed???
To????
Be?????

Neku suddenly stood up and screamed out.

"Ah, fuck! It hurts, it hurts me you know!"
Even though you heard every single word that I said.

The more Neku tried to remember the past, the more hurt he became.

Now you know, I hate, I hate you, oh!
But my words disappear and then I'm watching you go.

"Neku, you know there's someone out there that still love you?" Joshua tried to comfort him once again.

Neku held both of his arms tightly to reply.

"Love? A bluff? Enough is enough!
Everything that you're saying now's
no different from the words you said before!"

He then slowly walked towards the rooftop's
door, unwilling to look back to the scenery again and returned to the cafe, where Mr Hanekoma, their caretaker, took care of both of them.