Nothing But A Memory

Chapter 17- D i s t r a c t

Theres no way in hell Im leaving you here alone in your mental state! I raise my voice making her eyes tear up.

Oh Natassia, no I didnt mean to make you cry- I apologize softly opening my arms for her to step into except she never did.

Leave me alone! If I wanted to see you I would have called! She yells, her voice cracking as she shoved at my chest.

What has gotten into you? I furrow my eyebrows together confused.

Im traumatized David! Im fucked up, damaged, and scared of everything! Why would you even want me?! She cries exposing her most vulnerable self to me.

I want you because your different and believe it or not you are one of the most beautifully strong women I have ever met! You make me think differently and look at the world around me in different perspectives, you push me out of my comfort zone and make me want to be the best version of myself. I rant, my heart racing as suddenly I start to look at her differently. I no longer see just Natassia but the woman I am in love with and the thought alone scares the shit out of me.

I just want to be left alone okay? Just let me suffer alone She slams her bedroom door leaving me in the darkness of her room, the only sound being my racing heart and confused thoughts.

I know what its like to have to cry and deal with pain alone, its a different kind of hell to want to open up to someone about what your going through and not having anyone close enough to tell, forcing you to deal with it by yourself with no other choice.

I am not leaving with you! I walk into the kitchen to find her hugging her slim figure as she looked into her backyard through the glass sliding door.

Can you just go? She says barely audible

Why do you keep pushing me away? I touch her shoulder and she flinches and gasps. Shes never flinched when I touch her before.

What is going on with you? Has something else happened? I try to look into guarded eyes but she simply keeps her gaze on the floor by my feet.

Look into my eyes. I demand and she softly shakes her head.

Why did you flinch? I try to take a step closer but she takes two back, hitting the fridge door.

I dont wanna talk about it She hugs herself tighter, biting her quivering chapped bottom lip.

Then dont but at least let me take you away from this depressed place, a change of scenery could be good for you

She hesitantly nods and I take it upon me to get all her things ready one last time.

Natassia stared out the window the whole ride to the hotel without saying a word to me. Im just glad I got her out the house. Itd be understandable if she thinks I just want her for sex and although sex with her is amazing, I do want so much more with her.

We found ourselves in the chaotic mess of rush hour the whole ride so we got to the hotel at sunset instead of the afternoon like I planned.

We pull up into the driveway filled with bustling people and expensive cars.

Hi welcome to Quan Roy! May I take your bags to your room? I nod and open the trunk for him to fill the trolley while I go to the front desk.

The lobby had floor to ceiling windows all around, 2 little waiting areas that each had 3 gold couches with a glass coffee table, and a small cafe filled with international desserts and small glass tables.

Next! The front desk lady locks eyes with me and I go to the counter.

Um, I reserved a ocean view king suite for two nights.