dear diary,
its me again, that girl that always talks to you. Sorry for ignoring you recently, and by recently i mean basically for a year i think. I dont know its been so long i know that for a fact. So much has in fact happened and i dont even know were to begin.Its crazy to believe that its already is April. I could've sworn it was still February but whatever. Im not good with time. In fact i dont even realize what im good at. Its hard to believe that im growing up. What if im not ready? School isn't easy for me either. If i cant even handle school how am i supposed to handle my adult life. I dont understand. Why is it that everyone exspects something from me to. Just think of it like this. just imagine having a empty backpack on and once you turn at least 17 it feels like the backpack is getting to heavy for you to carry. Thats what im feeling right now. Thats exactly what im dealing with. Since i reached 17 it feels like the heavy amount of pressure just got put on my shoulders and i dont know a way to carry it. Im crying out for help but nothing comes out of my mouth. Its hard to believe that people can be so cruel and just pretend they dont hear anything. Especially if your the one who always helps that person. Whats new tho. This always happens to me and its happened to me for years. Well anyways before i keep being a depressing wreck, ill try and talk to you more diary. Your always there for me and i feel back for not keeping you updated on how i was. Well ive got to go now, ill be back later.
-sincerlly Alice
