Drowning | ✓

It was fitting that it

rained

that day -

rained hard, like

water darts, because

summer was gone forever.

You couldn't tell my tears from the

weeping weather.

Everything was black and

I felt black too, and

I couldn't understand

or feel anything

except numb. Because

he shouldn't be gone and

he couldn't be gone and

he was still here because

I was still very much

in love

with him. Because

he saved me

from myself

in a way that no other had ever even tried and

I fell for him hard like

falling off a cliff.

And his parents looked at me

with grief and

pity

because I was still

so in love

and irrevocably so, and

I was drowning under the

crushing

weight

of nothingness -

of him not

being here.