black poems

pull threw the pills

Coming in seconds,
Here comes wave 3,
Filing in this part of me,
When will I learn how to deal without my medications,
No one cares anyways,
These pills are all I've got left.

Don't take them they say,
I don't want to lose you,
But u never had me,
You never saw my good side,
I'm always fried.

Allways warmed to a boil,
I can't stop from boiling over,
I'm sorry i hurt you,
I'm sorry ur hand will still sting,
Still u cannot wear your ring.

I hurt you so bad,
I put you threw hell,
I went threw hell and u knew why!
Why did u not call?
Why couldn't you get it threw your brain dead skull?

I loved you!
I needed you!
And all I asked for was honesty!?!
But that seemed to be your biggest struggle...

I wish you would've called?
What did I do wrong!?!
Was it my eating disorder?
Was it my constant need to push u away from me?
Well I push everyone away!
I don't want to hurt you again...

So i let u go,
NO!
U left me,
u don't get to see what's become of me,
U don't get to push me around anymore,
Or have any say in my life.

You don't controle me,
Or have any words in my head,
Stay the hell outta my head!
Your not the one i want in my bed,
Your songs are no longer in my head.