Indictus

Suffocate

Its nice to see how people can do what they want,
going out, being themselves, being free.

Its nice to hear them plan on hanging out,
knowing that they'll have fun, definately.

Its nice to feel they're excitement, their happiness,
knowing they're allowed to go eventually.

It must be nice to be like them,

not forced to obey orders.

Enjoying small things,

being able to be with the presence of others.

Doing all fun things

without the threatening fact that someone would be very mad.

Without the feeling of being chained to something,

without the fact that after fun will be something bad.

Its suffocating, everything is not allowed, everything is not good.

I can't do anything and it makes me unbelievably sad.

Manipulated, forced, controlled. Its the summary of my life.

Sometime I really wish I could end it with a knife.

And there's nothing that could probably change that,

can't have the freedom that i never once had.

I wish they would open the gate,

I never want to suffocate.