"alex" there was a bang at my door. "you've been in your room for a week!"
i wiped my eyes and began to panic. a week I thought, it's been a fucking week? i looked around me, my room was a mess and i stunk. there was a stain on my bed that looked like piss and blood. i got up and looked into my mirror. my eyes were red and my hair got thinner.
suddenly i remembered, jonathan. and everything that i was holding, that i was trying to cover, came up like a boiling pot.
i was angry,
i was sad,
i was confused
and i was lost.
i couldn't control myself, i just couldn't help it. i burst out in tears and destroyed everything that was in my way.
i pushed everything off my desk,
i smashed my computer,
and i smashed every cd that i had.
i screamed and fell to the floor.
i was shaking,
i felt so fucking cold.
i need to find him,
i need to find jonathan.
