infidelity | maya + farkle

SEVENTEEN.

my eyes widen as he put his hand on the hood of his car and leaned into me but before he could kiss me. a laugh escaped his lips which made me look down at his lips and back at his eyes.

"you used to like me." i teased as i turned to face him and intertwined my fingers with his hoodie strings.

"whateverrr. i was fourteen." he laughed louder as he dragged out the ending. which made me giggle in response. i bit my lip softly as i held in my laughter. he looked at me and he smiled softly.

HIS POINT OF VIEW

"i saw you and riley earlier." she broke the silence between us which made me raise an eyebrow. she didnt have a certain expression, so i couldnt tell what exactly she was implying.

"yeah i drove her to school." i explained with a shrug of my shoulder.

"so.." she trailed on as she looked down and began to mess with my hoodie more. "im happy you two are back together."

i didnt say anything for a moment as i looked over at her. i didnt know how to explain that riley and i were not together without telling her everything lucas had told me. i felt like i owed her an explanation but at the same time earlier in the day i saw her and lucas in the same room together. by themselves.

she finally looked me in my eyes and i let out a sigh.

"we are not back together." i clarified and i could see her eyes light up a little which made my heart stop.

"oh." she muttered as she faced the sky and i could see a small smile grow on her lips.

"we talked." i began to explain to her. "i love her i do, but we cant do it. we cant try to fix something when its broken, no matter how hard it is. sometimes you just gotta know when to give up. i want her to be happy. she deserves it."

"you deserve it too." she replied which made me smile a little.

"whats next?" i whispered as i watched her breathing begin to sooth. she moved a piece of hair out of her face due to the wind beginning to pick up.

"i dont know." she replied simply before cocking her head in my direction. "what do you want to happen next?"

i licked my bottom lip by habit and took in a breath.

"i want you to spend the night with me." as the words left my lips, my eyes widen. i wasnt planning to admit to her what i wanted, but it came out without thinking. i noticed her breathing stop as i finished my sentence. she swallowed before looking over at me.

we didnt say anything at first. we had almost what was like a stare off. as if seeing who would cave first.

"why do you want me to spend the night?" she asked which made me roll my eyes a little but i caught myself before doing it. her blue eyes locked with mine with an innocent smile on her lips.

"i miss you so much." i whispered and i could see the corner of her lips begin to perk up. "i dont know what's gonna happen.. i dont know if you are gonna get back together with lucas.. but just for tonight. i wanna be with you. only us. just for this one time."

"only us?" she muttered under her breath her eyes moving down to her fingers.

"no girlfriend or boyfriend.. this time its just you and i." i reached out and cupped her chin, titling her head up to look at me.

"okay." she whispered to me as her blue eyes flickered up at mine. i let go of her and smiled softly. her hand slid down my arm towards my hand and laced her fingers with mine. she placed her shoulder on my head without another word.

so that's what we did. we went to my house. my dad was not home since he had a business trip planned for the weekend, which meant it was just her and i all alone. it was awkward at first, but the tension only seemed to build. it all came to a close when she seated herself on my counter top and motioned for me to come closer.

it wasnt a kiss we were both used to. the kisses we usually shared, but instead it was softer and slower. i could feel her smile against my lips and the passion behind it. it only took a few seconds, before i carried her to my room. we didnt say much, but we both knew it was different this time.

this time we were not just fucking. this time we were doing more than that.

as i kissed her collarbone softly and her fingers ran through my hair. it was as if she was made of glass and i didnt want to break her. it wasnt my first time nor was it hers, but it felt like it. time only seems to move slower when you make love to someone.

oh fuck.