Invisible (Niam)

Chapter 13

"Let's just go to Starbucks, I mean, if that's okay with you of course."

"Of course it is." I said smiling, I just still couldn't believe this was happening. I've been dreaming of this moment for years, never actually expecting it to happen. I thought that when they excepted me in to their group it was awesome, imagine how I feel now since I was alone with Niall. 

Just me and Niall. Nobody else. Oh my gosh. What if he thought I was boring? What if he thought I wasn't cool enough and then convinced the other boys to stop being my friend? This day could go terribly wrong. 

Was I being a little over dramatic though? I suppose I was. I mean the other lads like me... right? They sure acted like they did.

I know Harry obviously was my friend since he confided me in one of his biggest secrets. I'm sure he didn't go around telling people that he was gay and that he liked his best friend. 

Louis invited me to eat yesterday with him, so did that mean he also liked me as a friend? Maybe, but maybe he just wanted to make sure I wasn't stealing his best friend. Probably the second one. But Louis seemed really nice though. 

Zayn, well I haven't talk to him much, but he also seemed nice. I mean if you didn't want to be someones friend, you'd deffinatly would make sure they knew you didn't like them, right?

Then there was Niall. The boy who stole my heart with out even realizing it. Niall was basically friends with everybody and if he didn't want to be my friend then he wouldn't have invited me to go get something to eat right now when he could of asked anyone to go with him.

I sighed running my hand through my hair. Calm down, I told myself. You're over thinking things. Everything will be fine. Or so I hoped. I didn't want to make a fool out of myself, I was just starting to be happy again now that I actually had friends. 

I looked at Niall who was seated next to me, on the passenger seat. He was staring out the window, obviously deep in thought. He hadn't said a word since we've got in the car, and I was actually glad since I was also lost in my thoughts. 

I pulled up in the parking lot of the closest Starbucks. Niall and I both got out the car and headed for the entrance. Niall held the door for me and I couldn't help but blush, I hope he didn't notice. I tried to cover it up with a small 'thank you'. He nodded and waited in till I walked through the door before entering himself.

The line wasn't long, which is surprising since it's a weekday and the early morning. We waited online, and Niall ordered first. 

"Um, can I have a chicken sausage breakfast wrap and a grande iced flavored latte?" He said to the cashier. I couldn't help but notice how the cashier was looking at Niall, it made me mad and jealous. He's mine. Well not really. A voice in my mind said. Well that's true but a boy can dream. 

Niall seemed oblivious at how she was looking at him, twirling her blonde hair and batting her eyelashes. Whore. I thought. I don't usually like saying foul words but heck it needed to be said or at least thought. 

Niall handed her the money and stepped to the side so that I could order. 

"Hello! Can I take your order?" She said, happily, which just annoyed me more. Obviously I wanted  her to take my order or else I wouldn't of been standing here. 

"Yeah. I'll just get a tall cappucino." I said as calmly as possible, I didn't want her to spit in my drink. She nodded and told me the price. Stuffing my hand in to my pocket I took out the money I needed. I handed her it and then moved to the side. 

After a couple of minutes both of our orders were ready. 

"Let's take a seat over there." Niall said pointing to a empty table. I nodded and walked over to the table along with Niall. Once seated Niall dugged in to his food. I couldn't help but laugh, it was kind of cute actually.

"I can't help it if I love food." Niall said once his mouth was empty, then stuffing more food in to his mouth. I watched him eat as I sipped on my drink.

I was cutting class again, I realized. 

"You know, you lads are a bad influence on me, this is like my third time cutting class." I said smiling. Niall smirked. 

'Were badasses you know? Embrace it." Niall said. I laughed and rolled my eyes playfully. Before I could respond someone spoke up. 

"Hi,  remember me?" The cashier girl asked Niall.

"The cashier right?" He asked confused. Well this boy was just oblivious.

"Yeah." She said blushing. "Look, you should call me if you're ever bored or lonley." She said handing him a piece of paper before winking and walking away with so much confidence that made me want to vomit.

Niall grapped the paper and looked at it. He smirked and shoved it in to his pocket. 

He was going to call her. 

How could I be so stupid? He wasn't gay. Of course he was straight. Why would I have thought that he liked me? I'm such an idiot. 

I felt sick. 

I needed to get out here. 

"Let's go." I said suddenly, standing up. 

"Alright." Niall said confused. I practically ran all the way to my car. I drove faster then usual back to school. As soon as I got there, I parked my car, mumbled something to Niall that was suppose to be 'I gotta go to class' but I doubt he heard that from how low I was speaking. 

I ran up the stairs to the entrance of the school.

I needed to be alone. I quickly ran to the nearest place I knew that nobody ever went too. The supply closet. The only time people ever come here is the very begining of the year and the end, so I was sure nobody would be here.

 I opened the door and got inside. Empty. Great. I sat on the floor bringing my knees to my chest.

I felt terrible.

I felt numb.

I'm not good enough. Niall doesn't want me, he never will. Why did I have to get my hope up only to have them be crushed along with my heart? 

I couldn't blame Niall though. He didn't know. He didn't know what I felt for him. He didn't know how much I hated myself. 

I hated myself for liking somone who I know will never love me back. I wiped a couple of tears that managed to escape from my eyes. 

Was I jealous? Yeah.

I was jealous of the girl being so confident while I was practically peeing my pants by just sitting in front of Niall.

I was jealous of all the people who've been with Niall because they experienced something I'll never have. Niall's love. 

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Poor Liam D: 

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