August Baby // Shawn Mendes

Hospitalization.

"Good morning sweetie" i see my mom sitting in a chair next to me.
"hospital?" i ask her unsurprised, im always at the hospital for something.
"hospital," she replies and i role my eyes, "the doctor said we could head out once you came too, dads still working, stay here with him until his shift is over okay hunny?"
"yeah, yeah fine. i'm going to the roof" my mom hugs me & walks out the room. i get up, put on my clothes, grab my bag and head to the roof.

once i get up there, i sit and write in my journal. i write everything on my mind. every little thing.
"i feel alone, i feel like i'm drowning & watching everyone else swim.
i feel as if my life's a lie.
i feel like everyone around me is casting a show for me.
i don't feel right."
i check my phone to see that it's almost 3 o'clock ( when dads shift ends) so i head down to my dads office. i walk past a room and see that he's still with a patient so i sit and wait in his office. as i wait i scroll through my social medias, i see that rachel and shawn just hit there one year anniversary today. fun. i keep scrolling for about 20 mins until my dad says he's ready to go.
about 10 mins later we arrive at home, i head straight to my room & pick up my floor. i stuff all of my dirty laundry on my bed, i know mom will come get them later.
i hear my phone buzz, so i dump my whole bag out on my bed to find my phone. all my contents from my bag were now in the midst of dirty laundry on my bed.