Give It To Me || Min Yoongi

I

I'm going to give life a try

One more time

Just one

The beginning of the school year is such a pain especially the beginning of your senior year. You can just feel the thumping of your head and the sound of your heart ripping onto a million shreds. The words "projects" "the majority of your grade" "this plans out your future" blah blah I've heard it all before but what if the future scares you? What will you do?.

My name is rose I'm seventeen years old and I'm in the twelveth grade I mean I probably said that just not too long ago but here's my story since I was little I was diagnosed with anxiety, my mother doesn't believe me she thinks I'm being dramatic and my father says I'm stupid my little brother is too young to even know what anxiety is so to him I look happy all the time, or at least I try to look that way for him. I've been to about three physicists and every single one wants me to either take some medical marijuana or they want me to do drugs. But neither of those is going to help me so I decided to ignored it and push past it.

So I joined everything in school.

Did it work out?

What do you think , come on do you really have to ask yourself that? No it didn't work out because I was either left out or I was put on the spot and I had an anxiety attack and they all found me weird. Like always.

I only have three friends that accepts me here I've known them since the tenth grade and they're  been really nice and caring to me , they also understand what I'm going through as well.

"Hey rose how are you today?" Alaina says while caressing my back
"It's been splendid so far , let's see how the rest of the chapter is" I reply letting out a sigh

"It should be if you think positive, positive things with happen !" She says while smiling at me
"Thank you Alaina"
"So how's your anxiety so far any progress?, you don't have to tell me if you don't want too"
"Like I said so far so good, I wanna try to keep it that way" I start to shake my legs nervously as I scan the room as I feel like their judging me because some people are staring at me, I feel my heart thumping like a horse in a track then I feel my body getting hot . The walls are closing in on me I start breathing irregularly as I try to keep calm I try breathing in and out but it isn't working I try to drink water I end up having uncontrollable hiccups then that's when the big mama probably comes in.

I start to hyperventilate

Alaina turns around slowly and picks me up to take me to a more exclusive place, I hear the laughter of the kids as we past by them she takes me to the school patio as she calms me down by fanning me and breathing in and out with me. Slowly I started to calm down then she hands me a bottle of water I start to drink slowly than I just let the cold liquid go through me. I separate the bottle from my lips breathing heavily I look at Alaina and feel sorry for her.

"I'm sorry you have to do that every time"
"Rose you'd know I'd do anything for you that's what bestfriends do okay? If I'm by there on your bad days why would I stay on your good days? That's not a bestfriend" she says while rubbing my back softly I nod my head then she helps me I start walking back into the courtyard of the school everyone starts laughing and snickering at me.

"She's crazy bro"

"What is wrong with her?"