I Won't Give Up ~ Sequel Not Too Late ~

Chapter Fourteen

~ Demi's POV ~ 

I didn't know what I felt anymore. I sat on the bed with crossed leg. I was re-thinking... Well over thinking. Am I making the right decision being with Niall? He lives in the UK and I live in the US. I don't think he wants to leave and I don't know if I want to come back. Is this too soon? I have barely been here not even a month. 

I groaned, I looked over to the time. It was early, too early about four in the morning early and I couldn't stand it. I felt horrible, this relationship is too much. I sighed and got up. Tears fell, my emotions were mixed as I grabbed my suitcase. I couldn't stay any longer. Its barely a month and I am running away from the relationship? That's me. A scared little Demi. 

Once I finished packing everything I got, leaving a note. I couldn't believe what I was doing but I felt like me and Niall are going too fast even though we haven't slept together. I just don't know and I have lead him on? I'm a selfish bitch. I shouldn't be here. 

Not this again? Maybe I should go to Selena. She is Nepal. I will just call her saying if I could come and holiday with her after all I heard about her bad Justin Bieber life. Us girls need to catch up. I got out my phone as soon as I got out of the hotel and called the one person I just need and want at the moment. Am I being stupid or am I doing the right thing? It's me. 

"Hello Demi, what's up?" She greeted "Is everything okay?"

"No... I kinda called up to take a break... And I was wondering if I could come to hang with you this Summer?" I questioned.

"Bu-"

"Selena. I don't even know." I cut her off "Please." I begged.

"Of course." She said. Simply. 

~ Niall's POV ~ 

I finished making breakfast, Demi was actually sleeping in longer than me for once. Once I opened the door... It was empty. My heart broke as my eyes  traveled around the room to look to the bed. Oh no! I quickly went to the letter un-folding it. Tears already escaped my eyes.

Dear Niall.

I don't mean to hurt you, it's just my mind is going crazy, my thoughts about the relationship are going threw my mind and it's giving me sleepless nights. Like what's going to happen completely after the Summer? We can't go anywhere. You live in the UK and I live in the US. I know you want to stay in the UK and I am not sure if I want to go back. Still. Things that happen there was crazy and... The past is always in my mind. It was just a few years ago and with them years we didn't talk and before that NONE of us really talked besides me and Louis mostly. So I basically don't know you, I don't know if I know you as well as I think. Niall this relationship happen in one month after getting to know each other and I think that may be too fast. So fast it's overwhelming. My feelings are crazy but the thing is... But Niall... Please understand it's nothing about you, you did nothing wrong it's me and my thoughts that are going crazy and I just need a small break and think about what I want. I know you probably want to go with some other girl which I understand and you should I'm not good enough. 

-Demi. 

Sorry. 

Tears streamed down as I got mad. Demi left me cause she is caught up with emotions?! Why can't she just come to me and not someone else? Why does she have to be a sook? My sad emotions got replace with angry and hatred. I went out of room kicking the wall and going to the table where the breakfast was and shoved all the food I was going to give to Demi and chucked it on my plate before smashing the plate. Not cleaning it up. 

I brought the breakfast to the living room and turning on the TV. I grabbed out my twitter... Arg.. I'm going to regret this but I can't just bottle up feelings like Demi she bottled up the feelings leading me freakin on.

"You were meant to come to me crying not run away"

"You are probably just not good with commitments."

"Thanks for leading me on by the way"

I might be over reactting but so is she. More than me. I heard a knock at my door and I was hoping it was Demi. Maybe she has realized what she had done. I placed everything down and went and opened the door to Louis "Hey." I greeted, who was with Eleanor behind.

"Hey, do you want to go shopping?" He questioned. I shrugged my shoulders. Louis looked at me oddly "Are you okay?" He questioned, I sighed and walked away from the door.

"Hey I am going to see Demi and-" 

"She isn't here." I cut her off. She looked at me oddly "What? Why? When did she leave?!" 

"She left me a note saying basically we weren't thinking on how this was going to seriously going to work and we were going too fast." I mumbled "And I don't know when." 

Louis was pissed off, I could tell by his expression... What is wrong with Demi? Why is her actions so selfish? Not even telling Louis. 

~ Demi's POV ~ 

Selena sent her private plane to pick me up because she wasn't far and well I came here basically from One DIrection's private plane. I was left alone on this plane and it was okay I guess as I cried. Why am I am being so over dramatic? Maybe I should text Niall I'm going insane and should've just stayed but- Arg. Can someone help me?! Oh right Niall should've or even Louis but I'm going to Selena. 

Am I recovered? Am I still broken and I just been sweeping the emotions and damaged girl under a carpet but the carpet flew away? 

Or maybe I am doing the right thing? Going to the one person who has been with me threw bad and good. Never gave me shit and well.. Someone who makes me actually feel like I forgot she wasn't blood related. I do with Louis but at a certain point. Maybe I should start writing a journal dairy? I liked the thought of such a thing. I got up and grabbed a piece of paper, I'll get a journal or dairy when I get there but for now this is going to work.

Dear Dairy

This isn't something I have done in a while but I remember doing this when I was getting better. I don't know why but it helps me. It just kinda makes me feel clearer about myself. Well anyway, today was crazy. I left. Was it bad? I feel like it's bad because I had friends and the thing is I am running away from my problem or something. I don't know but it's good because I am taking a break. I wanted a break no drama and that's what a relationship does. I guess I'm not ready? Now my heart is giving this painful, aching pain. I can't wait to see Selena, we get closer and closer at these type of moments. 

Maybe this isn't bad? I just need some words from the person I usually get wisdom off, Selena. I should text or call Niall explaining what's going on in my mind or even write a song to show my expression? I could do both?

Or wait to what Selena thinks, maybe she can help me see if I haven't 

Well that's all for now my Dear Dairy but I think it's good for now considering I have already got something from it . 

-Demi.