I Never Meant It To Be This Way... I'm Sorry

Chapter 15

Izzy's P*O*V
I don't know why I was crying I just felt the need too, and I was in so much pain my head was pounding, my stomach was churning and I just wanted to crawl back into bed. I tried to stop crying but I just couldn't I hoped no-one would notice but no such luck. Jake felt my shoulders shaking and I felt myself being carried I assumed to our room, and then I felt myself being laid in bed. I opened my eyes to see Jake sitting on the side of the bed, I looked at him for a while then said "I'm sorry" "What for? Being ill? There's nothing wrong with being ill sweetie" "No not that for just being a pain and always having something wrong with me." Oh sweetie I couldn't care less, I'm always going to want to look after you! Your I love you no matter what" "I know I just worry I don't want to be a burden for you," "A burden? What an earth are you on about? Don't ever think that, I don't think that okay, your just going through a rough patch and I'm going to be there every step of the way and we'll get through it together even if it takes years understand me?" "I do" "Good, now get some rest, go to sleep" "I don't want to" "Please for me?" "But I..." "No but's please just rest up?" "Okay" "Thank you love you" "Love you too." He got up and pecked my lips and went to walk out, but I said "Jake don't go please! Don't leave me!" He ran back over saying "Hey hey hey I'm only going to go and talk to Andy and I'll be right back okay and we can cuddle while you sleep yeah but try and go to sleep now" "Okay, promise you'll come back?" "I promise sweetie" Okay Love you," "You too." And with that he left, and I fell softly to sleep.....

Jakes P*O*V
I took Izzy to bed when I realised she was crying I knew she needed to be alone and she felt so warm but she was shivering so I knew she was coming down with a fever and needed to rest. I laid her in our bed and told her to rest but when I went to leave she started panicking wanting me to stay with her but I needed to talk to Andy so I told her I'd go and talk to Andy quickly then come right back to her. She seemed happy enough and I left. I waited outside the door for a bit to check she'd gone to sleep and I could hear little soft snores and then I went back to the guys. Andy came rushing up to me saying "What's wrong? Is she okay? I know she was crying!" "Calm down Andy okay, she's just stressing" "About what?" "That she's a burden to us all and that she's always got something wrong with her," "And what did you tell her?" "I told her that she wasn't and that she was just going through a rough patch and that no matter what we'd all be here to help her get through it" "Wow, Jake that's the most logical thing you've ever said congratulations" "Thank....Hey wait meany!" "Haha aww you know I'm joking man!" "Yeah." Andy went to walk off to see her then and I stopped him saying "Don't she's gone to sleep, I wanted her to rest so she wasn't in pain." "Ah okay I'll leave her be." "Good, well I'm going to go back to her" "Wait so you can go but I can't how does that work?" "She asked me to go back and I promised her I would" "Oh right I see, sorry I'm just always used to looking after her, but she's got you now sorry man" "Hey she's your little sister just kick me out the way," "Will do but not now she wants you, screw that she needs you, go" "Cheers man." And I walked back off to cuddle with Izzy...

Izzy's P*O*V
When I woke up eventually I was resting on Jake's chest while he was propped against the headboard playing with my hair. I stretched out feeling a bit better and looked up to him and gave him a small smile he beamed back at me and I mumbled "What time is it?" "It's about 6" "What?! I've slept the entire day away!" "Haha yeah so what? You were cuddled with me" "This is true." "Do you want anything to eat sweetie?" "Not really, but I'm guessing that would be the wrong answer?" "It sure is c'mon we're in Portland now, and we're all going to go out for dinner," "Ohh where?" "I don't know Andy said somewhere posh" "Haha us lot and posh don't exactly mix" "Hmm true, do you feel up to it though? If not they can go and I'll make us something here?" "No it's okay the fresh air will do me some good I think." "Okey dokey baby I assume your going to want to change being a girl and all?" "Yeah I am, problem? I assume you'll want to be getting dressed in the first place?" "Yeah might be an idea." "Hahaha right I'm going to shower" "Okay." He pecked my lips and I got up a little too fast and my head started spinning and I fell over Jake came over and helped me up saying "Take it slow" I nodded my head and stood up, he walked me over to the bathroom and I took it from there. I got in the shower and just stood in there for a while thinking. When I got out I got changed into this ---> polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=84592121 and then walked out back into mine and Jake's room expecting to see Jake there but he wasn't. So I walked out to the sitting room and all the guys were sitting there, all quite smartly dressed for them, by that I mean non ripped jeans and shirts. When I walked out they all looked at me and there faces were like ! I laughed nervously, not really wanting all their eyes on me but oh well. I looked at them all and then said "Well?" Ashley was first to speak "Well what?" "Well are we going?" "Oh right yeah, fucking hell though hun you look stunning" "Haha aww thank you, eyes up though Purdy!" "Sorry sorry" "Yeah yeah, c'mon then." Everyone stood up and Jake came over and took my hand in his, linking his fingers with mine and he kissed the top of my head. We walked out the bus and thankfully we didn't have to walk far as where we were going was like opposite where we were parked. We walked in and waited for a bit to get seated when we finally did we looked so odd just 5 guys all in black and little me in this room of all these posh snobs we didn't care though, we were who we were and we weren't going to conform. We sat so it was Jake and Andy either side of me and then Ash was opposite me, Jinxx opposite Jake and CC opposite Andy. We were all talking and while everyone was distracted I leant over to Jake and whispered "Buby?" "Yeah sweetie" "I'm really not up for eating much can I just steal some stuff from your plate please?" "I guess so, I'd prefer it if you got something yourself but if you're not really up to it..." "I really am not, I'd really like to just go to bed but I don't want you all worrying," "Okay then bub its fine " "Thank you sweetie" "Your welcome, reckon they do pizza?" "Probably Jakey check the menu." I turned away while he checked the menu to talk to Ash who was staring at me at that moment, I stared back, and it turned into a staring match which I won! "Sup Ashybear?" "Nothing much hun, how you feeling?" "Alright I guess bit sicky but you know, what about you?" "I'm good just miss my Izzy, you never have time for me anymore" "Awww Ashybear, I thought you never had time for me with all your chicks" "I'll always make time for you hun" "Awww I feel loved" "That's because you are" "Yay!" He chuckled and I smiled. I looked back to Jake but he was talking to Jinxx, so I turned to Andy. "ANDY!" "IZZY!" "Heyo!" "Hey there little one, are you okay?" "Yeah bit fragile, how's my big brother?" "I'm good," "Oh Andy?" "Yeah little one?" Before you freak out when the waiter comes over why I'm not getting anything Jake's letting me share his, because I just feel so meh and food's the last thing on my mind" "Okay little one I understand" "Yay goody good, talking of the waiter.." and I pointed out he was coming over. He took our orders then came back a few minutes later with our food. Jake actually managed to get pizza and bless his heart he cut it in half for us. I took a slice and just nibbled at it while everyone else wolfed their food down typical guys. By the time they were all finished I was only half way through my second bit of pizza, I'd told Jake to just eat the rest so there wasn't anything else and I was pretty full as it was anyway. They were all watching me eat and it was putting me off so I put it down and just leant against Jake's shoulder while he slid his arm around my waist holding me to him. We sat there for a while, talking about the up coming shows and stuff. By about 10 we were all getting bored so we paid (well Andy paid for me) and then headed back to the bus. None of us were tired exactly so while the guys got changed I went and got ready for bed I got into this ---> polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=84599656 I was having a Hello Kitty over dose time. By the time I was changed and ready for bed the guys were all spread out on the sofas just talking, I walked out with the glasses on and cuddling my kitty teddy, and then looked at them and said "Ohhh there's no where for me to go " "It's okay my little bundle of adorableness come here and get cuddles" "Okay sweetie." So I went and cuddled up on Jakey's lap. He wrapped his arms around me and played with my hair while Andy put a film on we all sat there totally absorbed about half way through I fell asleep, to the sound of Jake's heartbeat.