Fallen Angel

Chapter 14

CHRISTIAN

I sat in my car, staring blankly at my house as I held the cigarette in my left hand, inhaling it every once in a while. I find it extremely relaxing to smoke.

I ran my fingers through my hair, feeling frustrated.

Outside the car, rain pouring down, which was the main reason I didn't want to get outside of the car.

Also, I needed some time to think about today and everything in general.

Although, I felt myself constantly thinking about Ella.

Once again.

She never leaves my mind, not even for a second.

I took another drag from my cigarette, instantly feeling a little more relaxed.

However, as the memories of today came back in my mind, I felt a pang of guilt in my chest.

I knew the way I acted today hurt Ella.

I mean, I could read her thoughts and I knew I hurt her and made her confused.

And what I said to her after class...

I regret that.

But, I had to do it to keep her safe.

Remember when I said I had a mission here?

Well, that mission involves someone close to Ella and I can't have her getting in this.

It's way too dangerous and I care enough for her to keep her safe.

In fact, I need her to be safe, and me not being around her is the perfect way to do that.

I finally got out of the car after about two more hours of smoking and thinking of everything.

Well, mostly of Ella.

I hate how she never leaves my mind for even a single second.

To be honest, it gets annoying at times how I've only known her for a short amount of time but yet, I can't stop thinking about her. Even at this moment her face is circling around in my mind. The way she talks, smiles.

Her gorgeous eyes.

Everything about her is perfect.

And that just makes me want her even more.

No, wait.

I'll rephrase that.

It makes me want to be close to her even more.

It makes me want to be her friend.

And maybe, at some point, something more than just a friend.

People seem to think that us Fallen Angels, don't have feelings. Well, most of us used to. At least, other than hatred. But, that's not true. Most Fallen Angels do have feelings. They can feel love, sadness, happiness and basically every feeling there is to feel.

Of course, there are some Fallen Angels that are just like humans think we are. They are cruel and filled with hatred, just like demons.

Just like the Devil is.

But, I happen to be one of those Fallen Angels that still carry around feelings.

And that makes me almost like a human, but of course, I can never be completely human.

And that's because I once was human, until I died and became an Angel. But, somehow, I got casted out of Heaven by God to be a demon in Hell. It's still not clear to me why, but that kinda doesn't matter cause I'm a Fallen Angel and there's nothing to do about it.