Napayuko ako. I've been thinking about Clicko the whole night lalo na iyong expression niya kahapon. He saw everything that Dio did to me and it bothers me big time. I felt like I should apologize to him for what I did and it seriously looks stupid. Bakit naman ako magso-sorry sa kanya di ba? It doesn't make sense at all at naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil iyon ang nararamdaman ko.
And I will never be at peace kapag hindi ako magso-sorry sa kanya. I can't focus on everything I do dahil iyon lang ang naiisip ko. I had to do it, but when I do I also have to admit that I like him, that I actually have feelings for him. So I've decided everything last night. To end this craziness, stupidity I've been feeling for the whole time I need to tell him everything. Maybe pagni-reject niya ako ay titigil na ako sa nararamdaman kong ito.
Besides, I thought about this; kung sakaling magkagusto man sa akin si Clicko which probably will never happen but if given, alam ko naman sa sarili ko na hindi pa rin ako ready. I mean, naiwan yata kay Kristoff ang puso ko dahil kahit ganoon na ang ginawa niya sa akin, I still can't say that I truly forgot about him. And despite his fault, I still can feel na may nararamdaman pa rin ako sa kanya. It will never go away. I love him too much that even though he's not here anymore I still chose to stay and set my heart on him because of those beautiful things he did for me than to forget about him because of his mistakes.
I always keep saying that my love for him is always greater than any of his mistakes.
"Kiana is one hell of a lucky girl. Alam mo yun? Clicko Manuel Colston is your boyfriend, dean's lister, hardworking individual and the commander of the whole criminology flat" natutulala na sabi ni Kaz habang nakatingin sa field kaya napatingin rin ako doon.
Group of criminology students with their camouflage uniform are doing something at the field. Siguro ay nagpa-practice para sa fancy drill nila mamaya? Agad kong na sundan ng tingin si Clicko na naiiba ang pang itaas sa kanilang lahat. They are all wearing a safari dark green colored shirt samantalang si Clicko ay naka camouflage coat. They're all holding a wooden gun. Nagsasalita si Clicko si gitna habang nakikinig naman sa kanya iyong mga kasama. Ngayon ko lang din napansin na nagpagupit na siya ng buhok.
Goddamn it. I have to agree, Kiana is one lucky bitch. But damn hell I was also lucky because that guy kissed me, once.
"But Kiana is a bitch. Paano kaya nagkagusto iyang si Clicko sa hilaw na instik na yun?" naiinis na tanong ni Sarah habang nakatingin na rin sa kanila ni Clicko.
"I just heard that Clicko's brother was working under the command of Kiana's grandfather kaya ganoon..." napatingin ako kay Kaz sa sinabi niyang iyon. Marami ring alam to. Let's fish some informations.
So, that's the reason kung bakit naging sila? But Martin and Clicko are also working under my Dad.
"Martin and Clicko also works for my Dad.." wala sa sarili kong sinabi. Kinagat ko ang labi ko nang mapagtanto kung ano ang kahulugan ng sinabi ko.
"Everyone works for your Dad Heanndra. Even my Dad works for your Dad" natatawa na sabi ni Kaz.
Yeah, of course.
"You know Ellie Zamora, the famous volleyball team captain? She like confessed to Clicko that she actually like him..." pagkukwento ni Kaz kaya napatigil ako sa pag-iisip. Someone already confessed their feelings to him?
"What happened after she confessed?" I ask formally kahit gustong gusto ko na siyang hughugin sa balikat para ikwento niya lahat sa akin.
"Loyal yata si Clicko kay Kiana so he rejected Ellie. Ellie was heartbroken, muntik pa siya mapalitan bilang team captain ng volleyball team kasi hindi na siya pumupunta sa practice. But you know connections kaya siya pa rin ang team captain." Pagpapaliwanag niya and I felt my heart sank.
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