Letters to Our Bling Bling Angel

You lived well Jonghyun

Jonghyun you lived well. Thank you for everything love. I'm sorry things had to come to a point that killed yourself was the only way to escape the pain. You're not in pain anymore and yure not suffering anymore. Thank you for being one of the brightest and shiniest stars of the universe. Now go light up the heavens. I will always look up and see you in the sky as a star. I will miss your sweet smile, your soulful and beautiful voice, your talent as a songwriter, your cute laughter, and so much more. I am going to miss you so much but I'm going to let you go with a smile because this is what you wanted. You wanted to escape the demons inside you and forget all the pain and suffering. You are free, Jonghyun. So fly high and be free. Even if you regret becoming an idol, I'm so thankful you did indeed become an idol because you saved me from darkness. I'm sorry I couldn't do the same for you. Please be happy. That is all I can ask of you. Even if I'm crying as I write this, all I can ask of you is to be happy. Some shawols are following your path but you can't blame them because it was because of you they were holding on. I know you wouldn't want that but please welcome them with open arms. I am going to stay on Earth a little longer and wait till the day I can see you again. I'm sorry your horrible doctor told you the demons were just a voice inside your head. They were so much more. And ended up costing you your life. I'm sorry you lived your life just by holding on. I wish you true happiness. I hope you have fun in heaven. I can almost hear you singing ring ding dong as you leave. Dress warmly as you leave this winter. You are finally away from the darkness. When I see you on my screen, I momentarily forget that you aren't on this Earth anymore. But then reality comes crashing down and I realise you aren't here anymore. You aren't restricted by anything anymore. Nothing can hurt you anymore. I'm sorry I couldn't protect you. I'm sorry I didn't recognise your cry for help. Now I can just pray for your happiness and that you rest in peace. I don't particularly believe in afterlife but for you I will. I will pray for you everyday. I hope you're smiling in the heavens, eating rainbows, telling MJ that Taemin is better than him and teaching everybody ring ding dong. I promise I will not follow the path you chose because I know you wouldn't want that. I will hold on, for you. I will be strong, for you. Every time I feel like giving up, I will think of you. 18th of every month is your day. 8th April is a day of celebration because that was the day an angel descended to Earth. 18th December is a day of mourning but we will think of you with a smile because an angel returned home.

Jonghyun, you lived well. You worked hard. Your music was beautiful and is loved by all. Even if you aren't here today, your music will live on forever. You are a soldier who lost the battle known as life. Thank you for being our bling bling angel. Bling bling will always be Jonghyun. We won't remember you by your death, but by everything you stood for and everything you achieved. Thank you for holding on for so long despite being in pain and pretending to be fine. Nothing can hurt you anymore. Please watch over all of us.

You lived a good life, Jonghyun. You worked hard. I will see you again one day.

Written by shiningjong
I know it's a really hard time for you, for me and for all of us. But, let's support each other. If any of you are sad or you feel like you need someone to talk to, feel free to dm either of us. It's not just empty words, we promise to be there for each other. And I promise to be there for you Sanj. Our bling bling angel, we love you.