I'm The Girl Next Door |TRILOLOGY|

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|ASH POV|

I just been so depressed and I hate it, I hate shake it off for shit no matter what I do. Nothing is helping me at all, I don't wanna play with Cha cha, I don't wanna be near Kris and all she has ever been was in my corner and I treat her like shit.

I just need some real deep advice.

"Hey Dad" I said walking in

"Hey baby girl! Where is Cha Cha and Kris!" He gave me a kiss on the cheek

"They are having fun in Miami!" I sat on the couch

"Mhm, you wanna talk to your mom huh?" He asked

"Yes please!" I said laying down

"ANDREA ASH AND KRIS FIGHTING. I'm going to the store wat anything?" he asked me, I shook my head

"Love you see you later baby girl" he closed the door

"What's going on?" My mom handed me some water

"I don't even know, I treat Kris like shit, Cha Cha hates me still, I had a miscarriage it's just like I don't know what's going" I admit

"Well first I didn't even know y'all were trying to have another baby!" She smiled

"I was raped!" I said

"Oh baby god, why didn't you say..."

"Mom don't do that please, that is took care of please, it's just I don't even know" I sat up

"Look okay if you say you took care of it then okay I'll trust you but you had many miscarriages you don't get over that and don't hid that feelings because it don't help!" She said

"Yes Mom I know I know" I said

"And Cha Cha only acted like that because you were pregnant she probably knew before you life is weird like that" she laughed

"I know that now mom. At first I wanted to kill it, because I couldn't even speak of the idea of having a baby by a man who raped me, but then I just changed my mind then god decided that I didn't need it and took it from me because either didn't even want it" I said

"Look, I understand that, things happen for a reason ash. Y'all wasn't ready that's all y'all have plenty more years to have more kids" she said

"I think Kris is gonna leave" 

"Why do you think that?"

"I treat her like shit, no matter how good she is with me or has been to me, yeah she cheated and yeah I forgave her, I honestly did" I said and I was honestly telling the truth

"Well it's either that or you still aren't comfortable with both of y'all being what y'all say stud for stud, your the only always saying she's trying to turn you into a fem whatever that is!" She said

"Fem is just like you a girly girl, that's all and yes I'm fine with her being a stud I wouldn't have married her if I wasn't!" I said