Enunciate (#2)

~ t h i r t y - o n e ~

"If you could only let your guard down, if you could learn to trust me somehow, I swear that I won't let you go." - Switchfoot

Ronan Paris

Today 11:34pm

Can you believe Christmas is coming up?

Lol that's pretty random but I guess so. I haven't really thought about it until now.

It's NOVEMBER can you believe it?
It seems like school just started a few days ago.

That's most likely because you've only been to school a few days in total 😛

Oh shut up lol
For real though, can we just skip Thanksgiving and get to Christmas already?

No I don't think I'd like that
The best part about Christmas is the build up. The excitement.

You right

When am I not 😁

I'm just going to pretend you didn't just say that and change the subject.
So we got an A. That's kinda cool lol

Yep that's what happens when you put a little work into it 😂

A little?
I put my blood, sweat, and tears into that stupid assignment!

Yeah I saw the sweat part but as for the other stuff? Nah.
And it was kind of hot in my house so...

Yeah it was hot because my sexy brain juices were flowin

Okay no
Don't ever say anything remotely close to that ever again

My mommy taught me to never lie 🙃

Do you want me to shoot you in the kneecap?
Because my dad and his gun collection is calling to me at this moment

I surrender

That's what I thought

So what are your plans for Thanksgiving?

Uhhh I'll probably just have dinner with my dad. Our family isn't super close. Plus they love really far away and don't want to make the trip.

Sounds a lot like my situation except my small portion of the Harris family consist of all the outcasts. We're never invited to family gatherings because of my dad

Awe I'm really sorry, Ronan.
It wasn't like this before was it?

No
But then again, it wasn't like this for you either. A lot can change in two years.

You're right.
Well I'm going to head to bed.

Really?

It's almost midnight 😂

I know but you usually have a hard time sleeping.

I know...but it's weird.
Lately it's like I have more peace of mind. I feel more...anchored. And happy. It makes it easier to sleep at night.

Wow
I know how huge of a deal that is for you, Par.
Congrats :)

Thanks 😊
I'm really happy to be able to dream again.
...literally and metaphorically.

Metaphorically?
What kind of dreams are we talking about here lol

Well...after my mom's death and Jensen and I's breakup, I kind of gave up on finding happiness.
I didn't want to put my heart into anything or anyone ever again.

I feel that.

So yeah now I feel like now things are different.

How so?

Well I'm friends with you again. And you haven't broken my heart 😂 so there's hope for happiness, right?
And I have my dad who loves me and takes care of me. I'm really blessed and it's my choice on whether I see that or not.

Wow
You've really changed.
In a good way I mean.
I'm really proud of you. You're stronger than you know.

I think I'm beginning to figure that out 🙂

Goodnight :)

Goodnight 😊