A Scream for Freedom | poetry.

Track 5: The Talk

"The Talk"

[Jack Wolf]

My mind goes to a state of total fear

As I walk down the stairs to see you

If I could do it all different, trust me, I would

And if I could undo the bad things on my story, I'd do it too

It's on your face, you don't know how to deal with me

I never thought I would cause a hurricane like this

Before you even say the first words, I already get conscious

My hide-and-seek time is over and truth lost its patience

"Darling, we found out something on your phone

So don't you lie to us, we saw it all, it's all done

Are you everything you say you are in these messages?

Wait, you have no right of answering, you're the one to blame"

It all happens while I'm holding tight to my chair

Thinking, "OK, I made mistskes, but this is far from fair

I did my best to move away from all the temptations, did I?

And now that I'm fine with me and my heart, you break my mind"

We're on the 21st century and you still think boys can't like boys

21st century and you still think I can go back to the "normal"

Wish I could scream to you right now, "I ain't your robot

I have a soul, a heart, a brain, so I can't be your toy"

But I soon realize these words seem totally disrespectful

I put myself on your place and I notice how it would be painful

To hear from your own kid he's not your kid anymore

To hear your own kid saying you're not a model role to follow

I think there's no way of breaking free without hurting you

(I think there's no way of breaking free without hurting you)

Dozens of prayers try to save me from a doom

You think I did this to upset you, but you're wrong

I needed three years to learn how to be strong

And you're still shocked, you treat it like a boom

Boom. Boom. Boom. Boom.

All of the advices you give me, they actually annoy me

Would it be better if you pull the trigger just to set me free?

I know, you just want the best for both of us

But what you're saying is bullsh*t and I'm about to explode

You're screaming doctrines in my face, but I don't get it

Just can't understand why you use religion to slander me

Wasn't you the one who told me God loves every single human?

So why you look at me like I'm everything but a human?

"I'm shocked by the daringness you had when you turned gay

You let me down like never before, where's the son that I raised?"

By God's grace, your son is right here and he's screaming in silence

Your cursing stopped my mind, now I only feel the hardest

Now this is me crying in front of you

Seems like every good thing you once said is now fading away

Wish I'd have the courage to ask, "what the f*ck you're doing?

Don't you see all of your disappointment won't make me stay?"

"We don't trust you anymore after all the things we saw

So, starting now, things will be in our way, our words, our thoughts"

Hearing your words, I just find out what's around the corner

You'll just isolate me from my actual life so I won't go forward

With my "outrageous beliefs" that can f*ck up our home

But you forgot this house is not a home, at least not anymore

Who guarantees you're right and I'm wrong here?

Who guarantees your truth is the only one that exist?

So I think there's no way of breaking free without hurting you

(I think there's no way of breaking free without hurting you)

Wasn't you the one who told me God loves every single human?

So why you look at me like I'm everything but a human?

I can hear the sound of our hearts falling apart

While I do everything I can to protect my heart

The idea of leaving home crossed my mind

While you stay there with crossed arms

I can't stand your criticism anymore

I should take a strong stand now, so what I'm waiting for?

We're staring at this house on fire

The ruins of what we used to be, they serve as reminder

That nothing will be the same again

And it ain't my fault 'cause I was born this way, baby

Tears are still falling from my eyes as I walk

You hold my arms and say, "don't make a sound

Neighbors cannot know about the destruction of this house"

You do one more prayer for me, praying to God

Asking him to set me free of liberties, to make me normal

While I doubt that heaven will receive me with open arms

'Cause you made me doubt if God still cares about my heart

Dozens of prayers try to save me from a doom

You think I did this to upset you, but you're wrong

I needed three years to learn how to be strong

And you're still shocked, you treat it like a boom

Boom. Boom. Boom. Boom.