fool |tracob|

F I F T Y T W O

Monday 27 December

we sat in the library for lunch.
you made me blush so much.
i hope you didn't notice.
but it was probably very noticeable.
and i'm sure you noticed.
and i think you actually took joy in it.
maybe you were purposely trying to make me blush.
you make me feel like a fool.
a good fool.
but a fool non the less.
my crush on you is growing so much.
so much more than i ever thought it would.
you make me so happy.
today has been the happiest i've been in a long time.
i hope you don't leave me soon.
i want to be able to know you like you know yourself.
it's crazy for me to think like this.
especially since i don't even know if you're gay.
or at least bi.
but i'm gonna let myself dream this dream.
cause lately my dreams have been nightmares.
but with you in then they are the best ones i've ever had.