fool |tracob|

F O R T Y S E V E N

Wednesday 22 December

you tried talking to me all day but i kept running away. i'm very embarrassed about last night. i mean it was kinda small but i basically told you i feel worthless and i don't know...

it's embarrassing telling people that. they just say 'you're not worthless' and that's it. i don't like people knowing my feelings. again it's embarrassing. i don't know if it's just me but people knowing your sad is just.. weird? i can't even describe it.

anyway about the worthless thing. i don't just feel worthless. i am worthless. and anyone trying to tell me i'm not just makes me mad. they know i am. i know i am. why lie to me? it's not sparing my feelings.

maybe someone actually telling me i'm worthless would make me feel worse though. no one talks to me so i wouldn't know. but lying about it is just.... no.

i'm not a fan of lying either.

but everyone lies

even me

especially me

so it's just a thing people have to deal with.

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im posting a lot cause i'm sad, ugly and lonely and have nothing better to do...
so enjoy