I'm sorry I needed you. But I just felt so damn lonely at times, without your voice to grace my ears. I felt like I was the only person in the universe and you the warmth I craved since I knew what love was. I choked on stardust and feasted on nebulae because you see, I thought I was creating art but turns out the only thing I created was a mess of what I used to be. I needed you and I broke my self in the process.
I'm sorry I wanted you. But I just felt so drawn to the carvings on your skin and the line art in your eyes. It felt like I was a meteor falling from grace, trying to keep your eyes swaying from the beauty I held within. I thought I had you in the palm of my hands, while in reality you had me on a leash and I had no clue. We were a supernova, if met once, powerful enough to destroy. I wanted you and I destroyed myself in the process.
I'm sorry I loved you. But I can't help the feelings that flow through my veins, gashing my heart every minute of the day. I tried my best, poured all my energy into making you see that my love was real but turns out I only created a black hole that consumed me whole, for my love could not get past the layers that protected you. It felt like I was on the hunt for a star that could never be found. I loved you and I made a dwarf of myself in the process.
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PoetrySpeak is a compilation of spoken word poetry that centers around voicing the deepest and hardest emotions we feel as a human. All Rights Reserved © Hussein Ali 2017 "His mistake was loving me. Mine was being unable to love me."
