Tears of Flowing Dreams

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... Then she left to another city to start her secondary education. She enrolled to an ordinary education institution where she was declared scholar - free of all. She topped in her class from the first to the third year of her education and participated in various academic activities. She enjoyed every minute of her student life and focused no extracurricular activities - no boyfriend, no going out with friends, stay at home status without much anticipation of something that happened all of a sudden. She was summoned to the funeral parlor to see her dead aunt after murdered by unknown culprit/s. The next days, she was brought back to her birthplace. There, more tragic happenings and the worst event of her life occurred. She born a child at an early age after falling in love to the worst creature she had ever met. She was sent to church and knelt at the altar and at the age of 18, she was a married woman incapable of raising her own family. Her fate left no choice at all. She was vulnerable, she was young and she suffered a doing of an immature husband. She suffered beatings and heartaches. She was crushed to death. She was living in isolation no one could imagine. No one knew. She was in forlorn.

When I was younger, it was enough just to like someone. That was enough to jump right into a relationship. Now, I think about the end before I even get started. I think about whether or not that end will make things difficult for me. I think about making a rational decision that an adult would make. I would have made life simpler. I would have made it less complicated and hassle-free. Human beings choose to become ill-fated. They create misfortunes. There is nothing one can do with it anyway. Fate plays its role in the lives of vulnerable souls.

It was merely May and the idea of changing her life kept battling in her head. Would she stay as a mere high school graduate or proceed to higher education? These thoughts kept on stirring her confused mind until one day a decision was made out of aspirations. She started her battle to overcome her misfortunes and to stand tall despite her failures, despite her downs and in spite of being consumed by the unavoidable mud.

Before she decided to have her situation uplifted, she was contented with her situation as a plain housewife, nothing to worry but her family. She did not care about educating herself or acquiring higher educational attainment. She focused on putting care toward her family which for her was her only priority. The situation which she was in, the lowly living she had - for her was enough.

On the mid of the same month, she enrolled to a prestigious university, the university which she only longed for, she hoped for and hesitated to enter because of her lowly situation. It was a jump of joy when she was enrolled that day. She could not imagine that that was the start of her prosperous days. For her, being in the university was really very hard to attain. That year was a "good luck".

In June 2009, she started her journey to quality education. She started as an ordinary student of the university at the age of 23. She was a mere 23-year-old girl and she did not possess anything to get schooled. She was innocent of the actual world. She was naïve toward living. She was a starter and a meek beginner.

She heard of hiring student assistants. She applied without a single hesitation. She started serving as a student assistant. She should get up at 5:30 and prepare herself for work as a student assistant who should clean the office where she was employed. Going to school early became her routine. She established workmanship having worked in the different office of the university where she was hired. When she realized that she could handle more complex works aside from being a student assistant, she applied for another job which she would incur after school. September of that year, she was hired as a tour guide in one of the famous theme parks in the city where she dwelled.

Really, life was tough but having the toughest life would make everything the most beautiful. This was when she learned that she had to give up her life as she knew it to get a new one; that sometimes she needed to let go of everything she had been clinging to and start over, whether because she had outgrown it or because it was not working anymore, or because it was wrong for her in the first place. Good start!