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How to Endure You

I haven't seen this coming.. 

I know that I loved him.
He's the only one.
But what the fuck is happening right now?

Am I wrong?
Is this some kind of a joke?

Alam ko naman na Pwede pa akong magmahal ulit,
Pero bakit naman ganito kabilis?!
At bakit sakanya pa?!

I just moved on..
It's too fast! Too damn fast!
Like how my heart beats whenever I see him. How my eyes suddenly lights up by the sight of him.

Ironic. Bumibilis Ang tibok ng puso ko Kasabay ng pagbagal ng Takbo ng mundo ko kapag nakikita ko siya.

But why?
Why him? Of all people, bakit siya?
I don't want to lose my most precious friend.
He's my partner in crime, my food buddy, my doctor, my plan maker, my adviser, my driver, my protector, my lullaby, my brother, my other half, my-
My, my, my,  fuck!
He's my everything!

I've endured all the pain, the heartaches, the sacrifices.
Nakaya ko na mawala yung lalaki na pinakawalan ko.
But not him.

How can I endure someone who has been my confidant all my life?