intricate |intro|vert

Fear

I would like to welcome you to a universe that is beyond Earth, beyond your own imagination of what "existence" means. Though I do not necessarily know who you are, I do know that you have once been scared. You have once been in a state of grey matter that you could not simply express to anyone. You were neither happy nor sad, but you couldn't receive any type of emotion whenever a situation would occur. Phoenix is an intricate |intro|vert who has a constant scattered brain that can never fade away. No matter how many coping mechanisms and goals he sets, no matter how many women he has around him, no matter how many people he has around him: he ultimately feels alone. As his ego shatters and his emotions start to have a "play-pause" sequence, Phoenix is left to understand himself...and make history.

Phoenix: Yo, can y'all get in the car? I don't even wanna go to this thing to be honest.

Jiren: Bro, why the fuck you always bugging? Come on, it's gonna be fun. Music? Weed? Bit-

Phoenix: Women

Jiren: You're right, my bad. But you get my point. 

Orion: Plus it's all our friends, why wouldn't you want to go to this?

Axel: *silence*

Jiren: Aye, play some tunes real quick. You got the AUX?

"Fuck!", Phoenix thought to himself. 

Phoenix: Alright...bet

As he scrolls through what feels like hours and hours of songs to pick from, he picks a song that perfectly represents what he has been going through. Though he was never vocal about his problems, he felt that this could be a release of pain that he could show his closest friends.

*selfdo|u|bt plays*

Phoenix: Y'all ever feel like no matter what you do, you're almost stuck in this purgatory state? Like the universe or some type of energy gives you these weird scenarios in which everything fits so perfectly like a story? And within that story, you are constantly either sad or momentarily happy. The fluctuation of emotions are almost like different lens, like you see things in a different light when you're in those stages. I find my eyes fixating like a movie screen, almost dreamlike.

"...and once that I can get it,  I will probably end it all"

Jiren: What is up with this depressed ass shit bro? I swear all you ever do is play sad music. I'm tryna turn the fuck up, my nigga.

Phoenix: True...we're here so it's all good. The music sounds phenomenal

Orion and Jiren: *chuckles* "Phenomenal" 

Axel: *silence*

As they pull up, the levels of bass were beyond extreme with lots of chatter coming from the party. People were outside in small little groups talking, the smell of weed was beyond conspicuous, and the feeling of a secluded energy became prominent to Phoenix. (At this time, Phoenix, Orion, Jiren, and Axel are high as fuck, but Phoenix has an eminent quality of detecting energy from others, especially those close around him. And whenever Phoenix is high, his inner consciousness is genuinely connected with everything in nature, allowing him to really speculate what's around him and his soul that is severely disconnected with reality.)

*|a|ntihealth plays*

Orion: Damnnnnn bro, this actually looks like a good time

Jiren: That last event was so boring, no lie

Phoenix: I mean it wasn't that boring

Jiren: Whatever you say bro, all I'm saying is that this event better be jumping!

While the skies turned to a pink so radiant and exotic to the point of taking Phoenix's eyes away from everything around him (even girls that were beyond beautiful), he began to follow a trail towards the woods that lead him to a vacant area, almost similar to the size of a football field. While staring into the pink skies with his dark clothing, he pulled a blunt out of his pocket in which he was going to have one of his personal journeys that allowed him to succumb to the deepest, darkest points of his depression. But it gives him the controller in order to better understand himself.

*sparks blunt*