Behind My Eyes

19

I don't think I will ever understand

why I wasn't good enough.

And I don't think you'll ever understand

how much that hurt me.

It put a hole in my chest and I couldn't breathe,

because it seemed as if all you ever did was lie to me.

You told me you loved me and you never did.

And that's why I think it was so easy for you to move on and want another girl,

all because I couldn't ever be good enough for you.

I could never be what you wanted,

what you needed.

It hurt me because you were my everything,

you were everything I could ever want.

What did I do wrong?

Why wasn't I good enough?

I stayed around even when things got hard.

I have never given up in you,

but it hurts that you've given up in me so many times.

So don't be mad I find it hard to trust you,

You did this to me.

-Esme