Notes To BTS

#1 ~ Wishes & Choices

My thoughts follow you to where you spend your days.

I laugh with you,

I play with you,

I thrive with you,

I cry with you.

When and how did you become

the piece I write,

the song I sing,

the art I paint?

I watch you live and grow only through pictures,

but how come I vividly know the sound of your breathing?

Indeed they are seven wonders of the world;

The purity in your heart,

The sparkle in your eyes,

The beauty in your laughter,

The grace in your movements,

The humility in your actions,

The sincerity in your songs,

The tender loving in your voice.

Why is it everything around you seems so interesting?

Why is it I love everything about you?

Can I not like it even once?

Can I not like it?

Don't let me see you cry, I beg you

It cuts deep

It shreds my heart to pieces

It renders me helpless

It casts me into the depths of hell

It hurts.

But don't hurt alone, I implore you

It will kill me

What would you do?

Hurt me or kill me?

Make a wish,

I'm yours to command.

In the depths of your desires,

There lies my joy.

Tell me, what is your heart's desire?

I need to be happy.

I was told that this love is

A cage for this bird,

A clip to it's wings.

But what will you do?

Will you unlock my cage,

Unclip my wings,

And let me fly with a mournful cry?

Or will you keep me locked

And let me sing with joy?

Should I tell you my wish?

I wish to be charmed by you

I wish to be imprisoned by you

I wish to be caged by you

If you ever decide to grant my wish,

Please don't throw my cage keys away

I beg you

For they may be found.

Destroy them instead, I implore you.

Don't let me go.

Should I tell you my other wishes too?

Don't take another step closer.

No, don't.

If you come closer,

I might never be able to move on.

Stay where you are,

It's okay,

I'm already used to loving you from afar.

Don't hold your hand out to me.

No, don't.

If I ever hold your hand,

I might never be able to let go

Let's not touch,

Did you know?

The memory of your touch is lethal to me.

It is true.

Don't stare into my eyes like that

No, don't.

It confuses me

Tell me,

What is the tenderness I read in your eyes?

It is love?

If so, then the definition of love was wrong until we existed.

Don't ask me to let you go,

Even if it is for a while.

No, don't.

Isn't it you who sings to me love songs?

Isn't it you who paint me in your life as a blessing?

Isn't it you who said the heavens curved us to perfectly fit each other?

I was told that a love like ours is unlucky

But Why do I feel

Like a sinner forgiven by Heavens,

Like a slave betrothed to a king,

Like a barren woman blessed with a child,

Like a maiden whose lover returned from war?

I love you.

But will you be jealous if I told you;

I also love supporting you,

I also love protecting you,

I actually love loving you more.

What will you do?

I want to protect you,

I want to support you,

I want to love you,

I want to do it way harder than before

This way, It will feel like I'm the only choice you have.

Forgive me,

This is my inane plan to keep myself by your side forever.