I'm Sorry Please Be Happy ✔️

13- Giving up again

Y/n pov
I just went to a quiet place where there was nobody to let all my tears out I couldn't handle this on my own right now I needed someone to be with me
Suddenly someone turned me around then I looked at the person it was Jungkook he seemed to be really worried at this point he's hands were shaking
Jk: it's ok please don't cry
He said softly
When he said that I couldn't hold anything I hugged him tightly before letting out all my tears out
He seems to be surprised at first but then he hugged me back I felt so safe and secure just like before I don't ever want to let go of him but at the same time I want to push him off and ran off again and just let everything go but no I want to do this right now I really need it

Jk pov
I wish this moment would last for ever slowly she started to not cry and juts stay there and hug me it felt really nice just like before I couldn't help but let a happy tear out while smiling

Lisa pov
I couldn't help but cry seeing my first ever love hug someone like that while smiling happily
All the thoughts were right he does love her I can't deny anything right now
I just went back to the hotel room while crying softly

Y/n pov
After about what felt like just seconds I let go and wipe my tears off
Jk: your okey?
M: yeah thanks f-for the hug
I said awkwardly he just smiled at me like he used to I smiled back and looked down it made me remember the times where I used to be so shy and embarrassed every time
Jk: this reminds me of the old you
He said and laughed
M: shut up
I said and hit his shoulder
Jk: never mind
He said and we both let out a laugh then my face changed to a sad one remembering the memory of tae and that girl beside him I bet they are having fun right now I waned to cry again but I juts hold it in and sat down swinging my legs back and forth looking into the sky
I left another person also sit near me I opened my eyes and looked at him he was staring at me I juts started back before looking forward again
M: I hate you so much
I said not looking at him
Jk: w-what
He said confused and sad
M: I'm kidding don't get offended
Jk: o-ohh
He said and looked in front too
M: I hate myself not others
I said looking down at myself
He took me by my shoulder and made me look at him
Jk: don't say that please don't
He said and I juts smiled sadly
M: I do hate myself I made you hate me and now I made tae hate me too.. but I'll fix everything when I we get back
I said and got up he got up quickly as well before I could leave he hold my hand tightly
Jk; I don't hate you I love y--
M: no don't say that even if you do please love your fiancée and be happy with her like I said before "I'm sorry please be happy" I guess I'm not good at fighting for my love... because I'm giving up again
I said and looked at him before letting go of his hand and going to another hotel and got a room to stay that night
I thought about everything I'm gonna do I hope it's all for the best I said and fell asleep

Jk pov
I don't get what she said is she jus gonna get married to that jerk now why did she say she can't fight for her love what's up with her
I hope she knows what she's doin
I heard weird noises coming for my/n and tae's room and I swear I could just kill that guy right there and then
I juts went into out hotel room closing the door harshly before going straight to bed and juts thinking

Y/n pov
Today is that day we leave finally
I got up girl the bed and have the keys back waking back to the hotel room after I got off the elevator I saw the girl from before coming out of the room I juts took a big breath on and walked
??: your so lucky to have such a man but u just lost him such a pity
She said and walked off
I just scoffed at her so they did do it I thought he was not gonna do it I guess I hurt him badly but still I have feelings as well
I got into the room and I saw him walking around running water I didn't even bother to look at him and went into the room it smelled bad I felt disgusted I packed all my stuff and got my luggage and was heading out the front door
T: where are you going
He said coldly
I tuned back to face him
M: why do u care
I said back coldly before going out of the room
T: yah don't u think your talking it too far
M: huh haha taking it too far what did I do to take it too far sleep with Jungkook or even kiss him what the hell did I do tell me, I can't control my feelings towards him just like you can't control your list towards every other woman so tell am I taking it too far
I said raising my voice at him and my tears again escaping my eyes
He's cold eyes softened
T: I-I'm sorry
M: your s-sorry it's ok I don't mind my soon to be husband to sleep around with other woman when ever he gets angry
I said and cried harder which I didn't plan to
He ran up to me and hugged me tightly stroking my hair softly
T: I know I'm a big idiot I'm sorry I was so angry and upset I didn't even know what I was doing
He said in cracking voice
M: it's alright the damage is already done let's just go we're going a be late for the plane
T: ok I'll be back
He said and got ready and we headed out

We arrived back at Soul and again they made a big dinner for us
Dad: so u guys had so much fun there huh so when is the wedding huh
He laughed and clapped
M: umm can I say something
Dad: sure go ahead
He said smiling
M: tae he he's really is an amazing person and I love bring around him but.. I'm sorry to say this but I don't think I can agree to this marriage.. I juts don't think I'm ready
I said and everyone was confused and tae he's looked broken but I said the truth I'm truly not ready for this
Everyone was gossiping
M: dad you understand right? I'll tell you when I'm ready but right now I think I juts wanna live my life
I said and smiled to my dad and he smiled back
Nodding his head in agreement
M: mr mad ms Kim I'm really sorry for all this but I hope you can understand my decisions
I said to them
Kim's: it's okey don't be sorry we respect your decisions darling
I'm grateful they understand my decisions
M: and Tae this is not bc of what you did so please don't feel guilty it's because of me I know you love me but you know why I can't return those feelings to you, I know you'll find someone just as loving caring and weird as you
I said smiling to him he sadly smiled back
M: I'm sorry I must go know excuse me
I looked at Jungkook he looked at me with eyes full of mixed emotions I just smiled at him for the last time before heading out he door I heard
Jungkook dad: well but our kids are gonna get married so don't worry this is all not a waste
He said laughing I looked at him before there was a sad tear drop running down my cheeks
I hope I made the right decision I really hope so

Jungkook pov
Please don't leave

Tae pov
I'm sorry please don't leave
Wa all that I could think watching her leave with her parents

But after y/n left what Jungkook said shocked me and all the others