And If... {completed and edited 2024}

And If... I hadn't told him ?

As I was losing myself in the smear, I suddenly heard a big noise, which made me startle. I looked up, seeing a hole in the wall and realizing that Richard actually punched in it. Was he pissed ?

"THE FUCK ARE YOU SAYING ? YOU CAN'T BE PREGNANT ! WE TOOK PRECAUTIONS, IT CAN'T BE POSSIBLE ! " He yelled, getting in my face, what I didn't really appreciate. What in the hell ?

"DON'T YELL AT ME ! HOW DARE YOU ? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU ? YES, WE TOOK PRECAUTIONS, BUT IT'S NOT EFFECTIVE AT 100 PERCENT ! I'M PREGNANT ! YOU AND I ARE GOING TO BE PARENTS ! " I used the same tone, jumping off the bed, ready to beat his ass. Forget about anxiety, I was upset now.

"LOWER YOUR DAMN VOICE, WOMAN ! " He kept barking at me, but I wasn't having it. I shook my head, not believing what was happening at this very moment. I didn't think about it twice and slapped him across his face, hard. I even left a red mark on his right cheek. I didn't like violence, but he got me to act like this.

That action shook him back to reality though as he calmed down. He wasn't expecting me to do this, but he reached for it and now got it.

"Did you slap me ? "

"Yes, I did." I answered with an attitude.

"Really, T ? You know what, get out of here ! GET OUT ! " It seemed like his eyes turned from brown to dark black. The monster inside him was taking control, but it was the least of my problem.

"What ? We need to talk. Like right now ! We have a baby on the way ! " I was going nowhere without discussing this situation. It was a categorical no.

"Tinashe, get THE FUCK OUT OF HERE ! " He groaned, "we'll talk later ! "

"NO ! I WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW, MOTHERFUCKER ! " I couldn't understand his reaction. At all.

Why was he not happy ? I thought we were in love and both wanted this for us. We loved each other and a baby shouldn't break this love. What was his problem ? Why was he yelling at me ? Why did he not want to have this conversation with me ? Why ? Why was he pushing me away, after I just told him that we will be parents in a couple of months ? Right now, we needed to be a team more than ever. We couldn't make it if we were falling apart.

Everything was happening too fast, I was completely lost.

"Get. The. Fuck. Out ! " He repeated himself, breathing loudly.

Realizing that I couldn't talk with him right now, I decided to leave his room, so he could get his thoughts together and we could finally discuss this situation like the young adults we were. To be able to raise this baby, we needed to be and do better. I slammed his door behind me, then rubbed my forehead, shocked by the recent event. It was too much. It wasn't supposed to be this way. He wasn't supposed to react this bad.

I could still hear him saying how much he wanted to create a family with me in the future. We were only fourteen and fifteen back then, but he was so serious about it. We both were. He promised he'll marry me one day. He also promised to always protect me. He said that he would be the last person on Earth to hurt me, but that's exactly what he did today.

If only I knew what was going to happen next.

An hour later, as I was making researches online, I got a phone call from him. Not too long after, I was meeting him at the coffee shop next to our campus, so we could finally talk. While I was making my way there, I couldn't help but think about my parents and how their reactions will be. I didn't even tell them yet.

I knew that my dad will be upset. He'll surely ignore me for a few weeks, once again. He had never been a fan of my relationship with Richard, my father literally hated my boyfriend. On the other hand, I knew that my mother will be supportive, that's just how she had always been. But she'll also be disappointed, not for the same reasons as my father though, but she didn't plan this for me.