And If... {completed and edited 2024}

And If... I hadn't told him ?

I checked the time on my watch, reading 8:30 PM, what caused me to furrow my eyebrows because I knew that practice was ending at eight. But I calmed down almost immediately, thinking that he was surely on his way. I was breathing heavily, not able to really calm my nerves though since I was anticipating his reaction.

Ten minutes later, the door was finally opening. It was him. He threw his bag somewhere on the floor and smiled at me as he came towards the bed, where I was sitting. He sat next to me, provoking my heart to beat faster. It felt like it was about to explode.

He wrapped his right arm around my waist, then kissed my neck, warming my skin instantly. He always had the craziest effects on me, it was almost out of the ordinary. No, it actually was. A touch of his on my body, on any part, was enough to get me start. Richard and I shared a strong chemistry, which was a secret for nobody. He had that magic power on me and I had mine on him. It was impossible to really put it into words, but people were often telling us that they could feel the energy that was passed on between us by just looking at us interacting with each other.

"Where were you at ? " I asked, even though I already knew the answer. I avoided to make eye contact with him to not get discouraged. I was so scared of his reaction, not sure on how it was going to be.

"So...no hey or I missed you Richie ? Damn. Am I in trouble ? " He questioned me, his grip getting a bit tighter.

I sighed, getting frustrated with myself. I didn't know how to say it. Was he going to be happy ? It was sad to say that I wasn't sure at 100 percent about this. I was so scared that my body even started shaking a little.

"Hey, are you okay ? " He asked, concerned. I didn't want to tell him anymore. I didn't want him to get mad at me. Girl, why would he be mad at you for ? I asked trying not to roll my eyes at myself so I wouldn't look crazy in front of him. But anyways, we were two to tango so it was his responsibility as much as mine.

"Uh...yeah...I'm good." I cleared my throat and placed my hands on his right knee, "Richie, I have something to tell you." My heart was beating too fast. I took a deep breath, attempting to calm down, but it was no use. I was too anxious to keep calm right now.

"What is it ? " He sounded so worried, maybe because of the way I was acting now.

I took another deep breath, replaying my doctor appointment in my head. I didn't know what had been going on with my body lately, but I was throwing up every morning and eating more than usual, sometimes food I wasn't used to put in my mouth. Pregnancy did cross my mind, but I didn't want it to be reality. My reality.

After answering his questions, being checked and all that, I waited more and finally got the truth. My first reaction was devastation because I was hoping for the test to come back negative. I wasn't ready for my life to change forever in nine months, but reality was that I was going to be a mother. A mother.

A child was going to entirely depend on me, and Richard.

I came back to present, swallowed my saliva and finally built up the courage to look at him. I took his hand in mine as he was staring at me, curious to know what I had to tell him. I could see a little bit of fear in his eyes, what wasn't motivating me to talk, but I had to. I kept this to myself all day and it was unsupportable.

"I'm...pregnant." I blurted out, then waited for him to say something as I was only met with silence.

He released the grips he had on both my waist and hand, then stood from the bed slowly. It looked as if he was in a trance. What was he thinking about ? I needed him to talk right now. He sighed loudly, wiping his face as I noticed a bit of sweat form on his forehead. Was he getting angry ? I looked down at a yellow spot on his brown carpet, trying not to cry.