Can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
Down on me, I'm still standing
Can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
Conscience clear, I'm still standing here
burns like a thousand stars, though you are light years away
burns like a thousand stars or more
you're up there, you're always with me
smiling down on me
can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
down on me, I'm still standing
can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
conscience clear, I'm still standing here
It's something sacred, something so beautiful
something quiet to ease my mind
when the pressure's taking me over and over
cause I've been down and I've been crawling
pushed around and always falling
you're up there, you're always with me
smiling down on me
can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
down on me, I'm still standing
can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
conscience clear, I'm still standing here
can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
down on me, I'm still standing here
can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
conscience clear, I'm still standing here”
whats up with me, iv gone from hating ville to missing him more then iv ever missed anyone, I sat on the same rock till the lights disappeared, I got hugged from behind, It was bam, “what you doing up here on your own?” he asked, “i was just thinking about stuff” I replied, bam didnt have to ask what he knew, “right back to the copter we going back to the bus then we shell be on route to ville's, maybe with a stop or two at a skate park” bam said pulling me up, “thats fine” I said, we were soon back with everyone in the helicopter. When we got on the bus I went and got my pj's on and got into my bunk to sleep but I couldnt because the guys were so noisy, so I got my ipod out and put my head phones in, I was soon drifting to sleep to the sound of villes voice. I was woken the next morning by knoxville sitting on my, and playing with my hair, “im awake, where are we?” I said sitting up and taking my headphones out, “we are at some skatepark bam wanted to stop at” johnny said standing up. I got up got dressed, then went outside, it was still freezing so I went and borrowed bams HIM trench coat, “just steal my coat its fine” bam joked when I walked up to him, “well it was to much effort to walk to the back of the bus to grab another hoodie” I replied, we watched bam and the guys skate for a while, johnny borrowed some dudes bmx and did some stunts then we went back to the bus, had some lunch and then set off again. We didnt stop again accept to get petrol, but before I knew it we were entering helsinki, I started to panic, when we turned up the familiar road, the road surrounded by trees, as we got closer to villes I panicked more, “bam I cant go in there” I said when we pulled up outside ville's, “well you gotta go in there at some point” he replied pulling me into a hug, “i will but I cant go in yet” I said, he nodded then go off the bus, I was left with the dudesons they were putting jam and stuff in bams bed, and I was just sitting there looking through the window stairring at ville's front door, bam cam out about an hour later, “um ville doesnt want to see you” he said, I couldnt believe my ears, “what no that cant be true, thats it im sick of him” I walked past bam straight in to the tower, “ville hermanni valo, you cant do this, I had to give up my life liturally for you, and I get drunk once and you dont want to see me again, your pathetic, its not my fault you dont drink or smoke anymore that was your choice, you know what before you left I was actually gunna say feelings came back for you and that I loved you but you know what I dont think I do now, your not worth my time, no body will stop me drinking ever I like doing it, and you mr ol so mighty vampire can do one because I cant be arsed with you, maybe il go ruin your plans and tell everyone of who you really are, and who peoples most missed and favourite lead singer has turned out, well hes a compleat twat, I miss the ville I first ever met, the sweet lad who tought me to play guitar, the lad I spent nearly all my time with, and most of all the person I fell in love with” I started crying so I walked out.
I sat on the bus for another few hours, the dudesons were asleep so it was quiet, I couldnt stop crying and thinking about the past, oh why did he ruin everything I tried to be happy so me and him could get us back to how it was, “hey alison” bam said getting on the bus, “hey” I replied, “right we have to go pick up stacey then we can head back to america, and you can stay at mine for as long as you want” bam said, “oh ville told me to give you this” bam handed me an envelope, he went to the living space to give me some space, I took a deep breath then opened the envelop, I took out the piece of folded paper and out fell villes wedding ring, my heart dropped and the tears started again, I unfolded the piece of paper, “alison, im sorry I cant do this anymore, everything you said was true, and it was nice to know you did start to love me again, and I do still love you but I feel that I cant trust you with the drinking, maybe its because I dont drink, maybe one day il come back if the doors still open but till then, live your life how you wish it to be, love ville”
Chapter 10: Wicked Game
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