A Writer's Story

A Writer's Story (Part 2)

-Have I been in love?

Actually, I'd be lying if I said no. But no, I haven't been in love. Okay. Don't get me wrong. I thought it was love but it is not. Hindi ko ma-explain. Pero ganito lang ang logic. How can you love someone na even hindi kayo magkita or mag-usap ng ilang buwan okay lang sa'yo at okay lang din sa kanya? Well, it is not love. Siguro hindi naman O.A. katulad ng kakakita niyo pa lang magsasabihan na kayo agad ng 'i miss you' or walang humpay na text at tawag. I mean, merong tamang way sa paghandle ng mga bagay. Tandaan. Lahat ng sobra ay mas masama pa kung minsan. Saka isa pa, masasabi mo lang na love ang love kung sa bandang huli, kayo talaga. Alam mo na. Naniniwala kasi ako na isang beses lang ma-inlove ang isang tao and you have to find that person when the right time comes. Kaya yung mga teens and sobrang bata pa, don't rush in falling in love. We all have time. Okay?

-It was attraction, NOT LOVE.

Okay. So let me start writing about this guy (whom I thought I fell in love with). It was September when we first met. Geez! I can't even remember. It has been years na rin kasi. Alam ko I was in second year HS. Nagpakilala siya sa akin. He was in third year HS back then. First, I wanted to be his little sister since wala akong kuya (I'm the only child). But things changed. Nagbago ang feelings ko para sa kanya and siya rin para sa akin. We became friends, then bestfriends later on lovers. Nagbago na lang ang lahat nung fourth year HS ako and first year college na siya. Nothing. He just fell out of love. Me too. I fell out of love --- not love, true love. It was love attraction I think. I love being attracted to him. We're friends by the way. Diba kahit hindi naman naging kayo sa huli, kapag naisip mo yung memories niyo together, you'll get butterflies in your stomach? So many butterflies kaya you can't eat tapos sumasakit ang dibdib?

-How do I write stories?

Oo nga noh? How do I write stories? Siguro 90% sa ginawa kong stories ay hindi ko pa nararanasan. Hmmm. Siguro dahil sinusulat ko yung mga stories na gusto ko mangyari kapag nain-love ako. Siguro kasi  gusto kong makita ko yung sarili ko sa mga character na ginagawa ko. Yung ganung feeling. Siguro rin dahil sa lovelife ng mga taong nakapaligid sa akin. Mga storya ng mga pangkaraniwang tao, nilagyan lang ng mas malaking twist at problema. Pinalala ang mga simpleng bagay. Pero ang ending, ganun pa rin. Lahat nakabase sa buhay ng mga tao. Niloko ni ganyan si ganito kaya nain-love si ganyan dun sa isa. Nalaman ni isa na ginawa lang siyang panakip butas ni ganyan. Tapos si ganito bumalik. Ay ewan! Labo no? Pero minsan kung ano pa yung malabo ay siya pang totoo at kung ano pang malinaw ay yun pa ang kasinungalingan.

-How to end an ending?

For me, it should not be ending. It should be endless. Now, the question is 'How to end an endless?' Syempre in teleseryes or movies you have to end it. Pero yung love story ng bawat dalawang tao, it should be endless. We all have the same ending -- death. I guess that is how you end the endless. We don't always get what we want. We don't always get happy. We don't always have happy endings. Love is a continuous process which is somehow -- growing, evolving. I don't know what you think about love. You may or may not contradict this whole thing. But one thing is sure about love. Love is not all about 'you'. It is also for 'me'. Love is not all about 'us'. It is also for 'we'. Love is not all about yourself. It is also for others. Love is not for nobody. It is for everybody. Malay niyo. There are billions of people in this earth. Nakasalubong, nakatabi, naka-usap, nakabanggaan o nakangitian mo na pala ang taong para sa iyo, ang nakalaan para sa iyo. Just don't stop waiting. He/She will come sa TAMANG PAGKAKATAON at ORAS.

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