bargaining ⇒ part two

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Maybe God realized I wasn't buying into Judaism anymore. Maybe he realized I stopped believing. Maybe it was all a lie.

God let me down after I got barmitzvahed, and Whizzer still sadly passed. I knew it was a stretch to ask God for this, but I still had some faith. But now? Now, I don't think I could ever beileve in something that let me down in such a big way.

So when I ended up praying for Whizzer to come back, I don't know what I was expecting. I said I would become a better Jew if I could get my friend back. That I would stop being unsportsmanslike at baseball. That I would be less of a pain to my mom. But it didn't work.

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