I'm not Sorry {Ban x Reader}

I'm not in control

-{Y/N}'s POV-

I sit on the corner of my bed and rest my elbows on my knees as I look at everyone in the room, waiting for the first question.

"What made you the sin of force?" The floating boy King eventually asked after a while of silence.

I look at him and cross my arms. "Well... as a Holy Knight I never really cared about the safety of other Holy Knights or the apprentices. So I tended to command-force others straight into a battle that could easily cost them their lives. I could tell they were scared, but that... that didn't matter to me."

Everyone's gaze laid upon me, even the tiny pig's. I look at them and when my eyes hit Ban's deep red eyes meet mine a feel a rush of panic and I quickly looked at the ground.

"Why did you leave the Holy Knights Miss {y/n}?" The princess Elizabeth asked now.

I turn my gaze and focus on her. "I-um... reasons."

"What kind of reasons?" King asks.

My eyebrows furrow and I glare at him. "Reasons that don't matter at the moment."

He rolls his eyes and looks away for a moment.

"But Miss {y-" "I said it isn't important, I'll explain another time." I interrupt the princess.

"Okay... then how about explaining how you got your injury." Meliodas speaks up.

I look at him and shake my head, but stand up straighter and face all of them. "I was on my way here, after leaving the Holy Knights, and was attacked by a dark misty figure."

"Misty figure?" Diane asks.

"Yes... I- I have a past with him and despise him with every part of my heart." I explain.

"What kind of past." Ban now asks.

I look at him. "Again... it doesn't matter. Anyways-." I say as I turn to face everyone again.

"- he has been almost haunting me, for most of my life. Following me, and telling me things about me- my family- things I never knew. I don't know if he's telling the truth- but they seem to real. So I attacked him, and he got the first hit." I look at my side where the injury remains.

"He left this and told me that if I am the true daughter of Abbadon, Fire-Lord and ruler of the under world, the dark pattern would create a symbol. But if I wasn't... it would kill me." I run my fingers along the bandage covering the injury. I stop and look up at the group again.

Everyone staring at me.

"You explained our little adventure very well. You deserve a round of applause." The same voice from him calls to me in my left ear.

I swing me head in the direction it came from. Nothing... I sit back down on the edge of the bed and place my head in my hands. "He's not here." I say under my breath.

"{y/n} are you okay?" Meliodas asks with a concerned tone.

"Y-yeah." I reply.

"Are you really? Or are you trying to act cool in front of your new friends. Tsk tsk tsk, very childish {y/n}." The voice says again. Now coming from my right.

"Stop... stop it." Is ay under my breath again. "Please- not now. I don't want to hurt any of these people."

"I thought you had the mission to kill them only a couple days ago? Hmm, maybe I'm mistaken. Who knows." Stop... stop is all I can think.

I feel everyone's gaze on the back of my neck. "{y/n} are you sure you're okay?" King asks now.

I feel a hand on my shoulder be placed down. "You will only cause more pain in this world. You aren't meant to protect. You are a weapon {y/n}" The voice now coming from the person in front of me.

Without thinking a shoot up and slam the person against the closest wall, my eyes red a and black. "I SAID STOP! LEAVE ME ALONE YOU BASTARD! IM NOT YOUR STUPID WEAPON!" I yell.

The figure, now in my grasp. "These outbursts will not stop until you accept your true destiny. Come back and rule the underworld and complete your destiny." The figure chuckles.

I manipulate fire in my right hand without taking me focus off of the figure. Next thing I know, I'm being grasped from behind me and I'm being pulled away from the figure. "No- NO! HE CAN'T GET AWAY!" I scream, now with an arm around my torso.

The figure fades and leaves Princess Elizabeth against the wall with a look of terror spread across her face.

My eyes return back to their normal {e/c} and my face softens and turns into fear.

The fire goes out in my hand and I'm being held on the other side of the room by Ban.

Meliodas and Diane rush over to Elizabeth and start comforting her.

I look up at Ban and he's looking down at me with furrowed eyebrows. "What the hell was that." He asks, sternly.

"It was him, it was him, it was him. I-" is start repeating. "Who. Who was it." Ban interrupts.

"The figure. The dark figure. Ban he won't leave me alone." I say to him.

"The one you despise?" He asks.

I nod. "I just want to see him suffer. He's caused so much pain in my life, and now I need to return it to him." I say through gritted teeth.

"Then why'd you attack the princess." He mentions.

"Because I saw him. She was him." I reply.

"How? How was she him." He asks again.

"I don't know how to explain... he was just there. Like I heard and saw him, instead of the princess." I say.

He nods and I see Mel walk over. "You're gonna have to explain your deal with this dark misty figure you've got on your hands."

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It's been a minute. But here's an update.

Hope y'all enjoyed it and I'll try updating again as soon as I can but I have an end of the year vacation coming up on Friday and I'll be there for a little over a week, and then school will be starting soon after that.

But I hope u guys r liking the story so far and you'll maybe spread the word around?

Anyways... stall cool all y'all soldiers ((I'll figure something out eventually