MANAN - Can't He Love Me ?

CHLM -32 {BLESSINGS FROM HEAVEN}

Mangaan ae hi duaavaan main
Channa tu mainu mill jaa
Tenu na bol pawaan main
Tu aape hi samajh jaa

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The ride to their home was a silent one. Rather a peaceful silent one. Nandini recalled how Manik made her unite with her late mother , whose single thought used to make her restless now it soothes her. She was glad that now she won't have to ignore the conversations which includes her mother. And all credit goes to her husband.

Nandini's POV

What Manik did today was not just unexpected but unbelievable as well. It was phenomenal.  I was stunned initially, like I never expected that his surprise could be related to mumma also. I thought it might be baby pictures or toys or something like that but definitely not this. Then he made me realize what i was missing these years. Only i know how much I missed mumma on my wedding day.
Every girl wishes that her parents are there with her on such special and life changing moment of her life but i was the unlucky one to not have her by my side. Like others , I suffered from cold feet too. I too wanted to lie down and keep my head in my mother's lap but that was not possible. I wanted that little speech, which a mother gives to her daughter on her wedding day , but I didn't get that also. Appa tried a lot to fulfill her void but he himself felt her loss. His vulnerable face was masked with fake happiness. In short , the whole Murthy family was affected by her absence.

I still remember how I controlled myself from crying that day. Every time I saw some motherly figure like some aunt of mine , I tried to find that comfort which I used to get in my mom's embrace but I realised it's utterly ridiculous thing , your mother can never be replaced by anyone else in the world including your dad. When time for my kanyadaan was there , it was my limit. I broke down and I could feel lots of pitiful eyes on me but nothing mattered. I wanted my mom at that time , very badly. The priest asked Appa to let the couple come in front who will do my kanyadaan as it is done in pair. My uncle and aunt were ready to come and perform the ritual infact Mukti's parents were also by my side for the same but that little girl in me wished for a miracle , that her mother comes back for this ritual at least. I glanced at Appa's face and pleaded to him. He sort of understood what I wanted but a look of helplessness crossed his ashen face and again tears made their way out. I was able to feel Manik's assuring squeezes but at that moment nothing was making sense to me. Then priest said that the time for kanyadaan was ticking over so we were asked to proceed and I consoled myself and looked for Appa in the crowd and he wasn't visible to me. I panicked , I knew the moment was critical for him too. First his beloved wife left him to deal with everything alone and now he was sending his daughter away from him. I wanted to reach out to him as soon as possible but I was bounded with many upcoming responsibilities and at that particular second my inner self told me that this would be my life from now onwards. I would want to be available for my aging father but my married life will interfere in between and as a good daughter in law I can't avoid anything. I was torn apart from the realisation. I don't know how but that time too Manik understood my dilemma and asked abhi to search for Appa.