You sit and wonder
Why it is that I'm quiet.
Why don't I smile?
Why do I cry at night in silence?
Maybe because I'm not happy
Maybe because I'm not me
Well it's not a maybe
It is for sure
There are a few things unsaid and done
But I'm still pure
I wish I could come to you
Admit to you the truth about me
How I like gym shoes over heels
Footballs over nails, but that's me
I prefer laser tag over movies
Outside picnics over fancy dinners
Arcades over tea parties
Being fit over being thicker
Wrestling over hand games
G.I. Joes over Barbies
Thrillers and action over romance
Chilling with my friends over parties
Sweats over yoga pants
Basketball shorts over booty shorts
Oversized shirts rather than night gowns
Pants over skirts
I prefer natural hair over weave
Natural Beauty over make-up
Loose fitting clothes over very fitted ones
More manly things over girly stuff
Well the happy but sad truth is
I like girls and guys
So now that you know
Will you make me say my goodbyes
Or will you open your heart
And accept your daughter as she is
But as I distinctly remember
You don't think gays should have kids
You think it is a choice
Not a lifestyle
But for me, It is a lifestyle
It's a lifestyle I've lived since a child
You scream and yell at me
Yet you never stopped to try to understand me
You never sat down and talked to me
Never asked why I stopped being silly
You never thought about it
How come my relationships with guys were short
How come I have so many female friends
Why do I like to play on the basketball courts
Why will I only be friends with guys?
Never in a serious relationship with them
Why am I so isolated?
Why do friendzone them?
The truth about that is
Most of them are assholes
While I'm trying to give them my heart
They just want me as a poking hole
Yes I had one serious relationship
But we see how that went
I was cheated on and lied to
And he did it with no resent
So I'm sorry
If you can't accept me for who I am
And hopefully the day comes
Where I can be me and not someone else
YOU ARE READING
Anybody Listening?
PoetryThese are just poems that i wrote that i felt were locked away inside of me. It just explains and questions what i feared i couldn't say aloud. It may also be what other people are feeling, but i do know that it helps me get out what i have been kee...
