On My Own

Spring Break(Part 2)

"Y'all done already?" Lydia laughed, sitting a plate in front of Lucas. His shirt was still off and he had on some different clothes this time.

"Yes. She's a very interesting woman. I love her already" I sat down next to him. He just ate, and pretended that I wasn't there.

"What's wrong with you? Why haven't you talked to me since we left from my house?" I eyed him. I knew Lydia was listening but she acted like she wasn't.

"Lucas? You're just not going to answer me? What the hell is wrong with you? You didn't even speak to your mother?" I don't know what his problem was

"You wanna eat? After that, you can go because imma be outside with the homies" homies?

"Here you go ken. I'll be in the back. Just" she looked at Lucas. "Scream if you need me" she left quickly

"Scream?" I whispered to myself. I shook it off

"Lucas! Why are you acting like this? What you all hardbody/Mr. Gangster at home. Then Steve urkel at school?" I asked in his face.

"No I have to be hardbody at home because then they'll mistake you for a bitch. And I have to be urkel at school because then they'll think you don't belong there"

"So what you change depending on your location? People are going to judge you everywhere you go! You can't change that"

"Exactly. So I'll change me" he continued to eat

"That's not a good thing to do either. Just be yourself. I'm not used to this part of you"

"Well as long as we're here get used to him" he rolled his eyes

"I don't have to do shit. Choose who you want to be. Im not doing this" I got up and was about to walk away.

"WAIT." He sighed and put his fork down then came behind him. He laid his head on my shoulder and wrapped his arms around me

"I'm sorry. I'm just embarrassed that's all. Look at where you're from, and look at me. Look at your family, and look at mine. I'm sorry that I have to act like this here, but its the only way they'll respect me"

"I don't care about where you live. I care about you. I love you. I love your mom. I love who YOU are. I know the real you, but you don't. If you wanna gain respect from them then you act like this in front of THEM! Outside of this door. As long as you're in here, and I'm around. You're gonna respect me, respect Lydia, and your mother!" My back was still to him. He just bit my neck

"I understand. I apologize for earlier. I didn't mean to disrespect you."

"Not just me. You disrespected Lydia. And your mother too. Your mother loves you Lucas"

"I love her too. I really love her too" I sighed.

"Don't be like your brother then. Talk to her while she's here. Cause when she's gone, you're going to regret it. Trust me" I fanned my eyes a little.

"I will. Y'all are the two most important people in my life I swear" I turned around and hugged him.

"I want to meet your friends too" I pecked his lips

"Mannnn them niggas gon be trying to take you away from me bae" I laughed at how he was talking.

"But they can't have me" I kissed him slowly. He kissed me back and bit my lip when I pulled back

"Damn girl. You really drive me crazy" he kissed my forehead.

"I have that affect on people" I winked at him and ate some food. It was really good