a small list of things i'd normally hide

viii. a message to a friend of a friend

i do not know if you still hurt

i do not know if you ever hurt at all

i do not know if you still feel bad for doing what you did

i do not know if you ever felt bad for that

but i know 3 things.

1. she still loves you.

it has been months since you met

it still hurts her

you hurt her and i am so angry

2. you, at one point, loved her.

you loved her and i'm so angry you did

you spent time on her and did not give her the world

she has been played with

time

and

time

again.

i thought you wouldn't let me down.

3. you're still in her suggested.

she looks at your account daily

looking at your 4 posts

she looks at you,

and hurts.

i am angry, sad and upset.

i am angry you hurt her.

i am sad because she is sad.

i'm upset because you let me down.

of all the people she had you let her down most.

and you did it daily.

yet she kept falling back into your arms, yours for the keep.

you had so many opportunities to have her.

and you let her go.

thank you for letting her go.

she hates it with every atom of her being.

her body is sore and it's not because she runs.

her body is aching because you ripped yourself away from her.

it's hard.

it's hard.

it's hard for her

and i hope to god it's hard for you.

but thank you for letting her go

thank you for not hurting her anymore.

thank you for curing her even though she still has healing to do.

.

and i'm sorry if you ever see this poem.

don't be mad.

you do not deserve a wilted flower in your perfect garden.

do me a favor and let her go.

you love her

it is not easy

it was not -

it is not -

- easy for me

it's daily and it hurts and i can't imagine your pain.

you deserve so much more.

let her go.

let her go because she is not worth it.

i know it's hard.

take your time.