Shawn Mendes Imagines

Quiet

//your pov//

"So dude, does Y/n ever talk or is she just shy and doesn't talk when we're around." I overhear Brian ask Shawn. I'm currently in the kitchen looking for food while eavesdropping on Shawn, Brian and Ian's conversations as they play Xbox. Something I always regret doing..

"No, she's just pretty quiet most of the time. Why?" Shawn asks.

"No reason really, it's just that she's so quiet when we're around that it sometimes feels a little awkward." Brian answers.

"Totally untrue." Shawn retorts.

"Dude, Brian's right." Ian said, finally adding to the conversion. "Whenever she's around it's so awkward and almost like she's uncomfortable around us. Why are you even with her?" Ian adds.

"I don't know, maybe I just like a change from you two bozos who do nothing but talk. So shut up." Shawn said jokingly, ending the conversation.

I pull my bottom lip into my mouth as I start to feel my eyes swell up with tears.

No longer feeling hungry, I silently turn and go the back way out of the kitchen into Shawn's room where I shut the door and sit on the edge of his bed before I completely break down.

I couldn't help that I don't talk much. I mean yeah, when I was little I talked non-stop, but eventually either my words started jumbling together, I was called stupid for whatever I was rambling about, or I was just straight up ignored. And on-top of all that I had my heart broken twice. Once by a two-timing fuckboy who cheated on me the entire duration of our relationship and again by a guy who criticized everything I did and then broke up with me after he hit me and called me worthless.

However, Shawn knows about all of this now that we've been together for a while and yes, I do talk to him sometimes, but when I do it's usually not very much.

I guess that goes into one huge reason that I love him; he never pushes me to say something If I don't want to, but he always makes sure I know that he loves me regardless of my silence.

After I had calmed down a bit I decided that I'd take a small nap until Brian and Ian's girlfriends got here so we can all hang out as couples.

I decided that I would use this opportunity to say at least one thing, even if it did come out small and quiet. Cause I can't risk loosing Shawn due to my stupid reasons for not wanting to talk.

About an hour later I'm awoken by the sound of the front door opening and closing followed by the sounds of welcoming cheers. Assuming that all the noise means that the guy's girlfriends are here, I sit up from my comfy position on Shawn's bed and walk over to the mirror to make sure my hair isn't too bad.

After I had made myself look a bit more presentable I figured I should practice saying at least a few things considering I don't use my voice often.

"S-Sh-Shawn-n" I mumbled, surprised at the sound of my voice.

After I worked on saying a few more things I decided that I should probably head downstairs.

After a couple hours of everyone socializing and having a good time, I determined that it was time I should probably say something, since it was getting late and our everyone would have to leave soon.

After I had finished making my desired drink I made my way back to my spot on Shawn's lap, near the fire and snuggled up into his chest.

A few seconds later I feel his lips press gently against my forehead before he moves his mouth next to my ear.

"I love you." I hear him whisper.

"I love you too." I whisper back, but loud enough for everyone around us to hear.

Imeadatly after those words leave my mouth I can practically feel Shawn's smile radiating off of him as Brian and Ian give him a 'did she just?' kind of look. 

I decided that saying that was enough for now, considering the extremely shocked looks on the guys faces when I spoke. I wouldn't want to give them a heart attack by saying anything more. So I didn't.

Later, after all of Shawn's friends had left, I'm standing at the kitchen sink washing off all the marshmallow from the stick things we used to make s'mores when I feel a pair of strong arms wrapped around my waist.

Instantly identifying the person as Shawn, I quickly relax into his embrace as he snuggles his face into the crook of my neck and leaves feather-like kisses there and along my shoulder.

"I love you." He states, mater-of-factly in between kisses.

"I love you too." I said, placing my hands over his.

"god, I'll never get tired of hearing you say that." He sighed while resting his head on my shoulder before spinning me around to face him.

"Good, cause I'll never get tired of saying it and I'm sorry if I don't say it enough or say anything for that matter, it's just hard to talk about anything after what happened. Also, sometimes I just don't trust my voice and I don't know what will come out and I'm terrified to say the wrong thing so I just stick with silence." I rambled, not quite meeting his gaze.

  "Babygirl, don't apologize for that, or anything ever. Like I said before, I love you and I wouldn't change a thing about you. I know you basically went through hell so I don't blame you if you don't want to talk or don't particularly have anything to say, but just know you should never worry about saying the wrong thing in front of me. I won't judge you for it. No matter what." He ranted, placing a gentle kiss on my forehead.

  "Thank you, Shawn. I really don't know what I'd do without you." I mumbled, burying my head in his chest as I wrapped my arms around his torso.

  "Anything for you princess. And believe me when I say I literally wouldn't be able to function without you in my life." He added causing me to giggle.

  "Now c'mon honey, let's go and cuddle and watch a movie, sound good?" He suggested.

  I smiled and nodded as I pulled him towards the couch where we stayed wrapped in each others embrace as we fell asleep there, together and happy.

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