Hurt...(Jacob Perez love story)

Because I love you, stupid!

::Charlene POV:: 

The darkness started to fade as I came out of my trance. I took a paper towel and cleaned all the blood from the floor. Who knew that this could be so...so relaxing. I went in my bed thinking about some many things, which eventually drove me to sleep. 

I cracked my eyes open feeling so at peace. I felt so calm that I decided I was still going to school today. I took my shower. The hot water hitting my cut was so relaxing. I know your thinking "Isn't that suppose to hurt?" well ever since letting out my frustration I haven't really been able to sense pain. Oh well. I knew I had to hide this big cut, so I wore on of my big sweaters. I went down stairs to see my mom cooking. "Hey mama, how was school?" "Good." I said dully "what's the matter with you?" "Nothing." I said simply. "Stop lying to me, Charlene. i know something is bothering you just talk to me about it. Please Mama."  I sighed "Mom I can't do this now i have to go" I said pulling my sleeve over my cut. "Mama you have to eat something please. You look like you could drop dead at any minuet." she said softly trying to convince me. If she mentions this one more time I swear I'm gonna scream "Mom, didn't i say I was eating?! Why can't you just trust me and drop this!?" "because there is something your telling me!" Why can't she just leave me alone?. "Mom, there's nothing to tell you. I have to go." without letting her get in another word i stormed off. There goes my calmness.. I walk into the school and surprisingly I was left alone...or so I thought. Briana caught a glimpse of me. She looked at me up and down and rolled her eyes. "Got something to say gorilla?" she said while making monkey sounds. i ignored her and went to my locker. I finished getting my things out of my locker, closed the door and who do i find walking towards me?....you guessed it. Jacob. I quickly closed my locker and walked away before he could get with in inches of me. 

::Jacob POV::

I had so much on my mind. Charlene was all i could think about last night. My bonita is hurting but she won't let me help her. She's afraid..afraid that if she let's me inside of her world that I might hurt her. I just wanna love her but she doesn't understand. She thinks everybody is out to get her. So to avoid that she doesn't get close to people. I want to see her smile again. Majority of the time I've known her, I've only seen her cry. That hurts. I just can't shake this feeling, this gut wrenching feeling that she did something....something dangerous. I spotted Charlene at her locker, before I could even get to her she quickly walked away. Why did she do that? now I'm getting frustrated. I just want to help her because I care! Through out the whole rest of the day she kept avoiding me, well not for long. Don't worry mami's, papi Jacob has a plan. 

::Charlene POV:: 

It was almost the end of the the day. Do you know how relived I was? I avoided Jacob as much as possible now I just left my classroom that my last class was in. I was walking when suddenly I felt someone pull me into an empty classroom. I looked to see Jacob was the one that pulled me in. "Why are you avoiding me?" he asked with sincerity trying to look into my eyes again. Why won't this chico listen? "Look at me Charlene" he said coming closer. I backed up like always. "Please?" his voice was shaky. I shook my head as I tried to leave. The door was locked "Open the door, Jacob." I said lowly "No. Not until you talk to me..Please I'm just worried about you Bonita" I swear, if he calls me Bonita one more time. "Don't be" I said coldly. When will papi get a clue? "Why shouldn't I? You look so weak. Each time I see you, your crying, and you refuse to let me know what's going on. Please...just trust me. I won't hurt you i promise." he said taking my wrist. I winced, pulling it back. It was the wrist with the cut on it. "What's wrong?" he said making a confused face. I felt something join down my hand. i knew it was blood. He saw it. " Is that...blood? Give me you hand." he said "No" i said. He had tears in the corners of his eyes. Why was he about to...cry? "Please, Charlene. Don't push me away. I just wanna help. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something happened to you." I gave him my hand. His touch made me flinch. "Don't be scared." he said looking at me. he raised my sleeve and saw the cut with blood all over it. "Charlene, d-did you do this to yourself?" he asked with a tear coming from his left eye. Why does he care!?  I just looked down. "No" I lied and he knew it. "Don't lie to me Charlene." I didn't answer him. He took me chin and softly made me look at him. "It doesn't matter" i muttered "yes, it does Charlene! Do you know how much it hurts me to see you like this?! You hurt yourself! What if something else happens and you do worse huh?! i won't be able to live with my self knowing that there is something wrong and I didn't do anything to stop it! Please...Bonita, talk to me...trust me." I was pissed, only because i never get why he cares so much and the fact that he called me Bonita. i had tears running down my face. "Stop calling me Bonita! I'm not beautiful and you know it! Do you not hear the things people say to me?! i get it I'm not beautiful so lying to me, and telling me that I am! And why do you care so much, huh?! Is it cause you feel bad?! well don't! I don't nee-" "I care because I love you, stupid! So shut up and let me love you!" "Wh-" he cut me off by grabbing face  and kissing me. my instinct was to kiss back. i got that feeling again. You know, with the roller coaster? Yea. I tried to push him away but he was to strong. He sucked on my bottom lip while I gripped onto him tight. He put his hands on my waist and pressed himself against me. He glided his tongue which made my stomach jump. After a little while he pulled away and looked me deep in the eyes "You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen" he whispered to me. I had chills running down my back. Did I believe him...I don't know. I can't believe he di-. Hold up wait a minuet! Did he say he loved me? Did he just call me stupid? Did he just tell me to shut up? Does this boy know I will whoop his sexy blexican butt? I'll deal with that later. Anyways back to business. "Y-you love...me? but-" "I know i've only known you for a couple of days. but there's something about you Charlene. Your all I think about. i just want you to be able to talk to me trust me...I promise you..I won't hurt you." If this boy cut me off one more time it's about to go down."O-ok, I l-love you too" he smiled at me. i honestly didn't know what to say. Of coursed i liked him back but I was surprised that he ever liked me like that. He just promised me he wouldn't hurt me. You guys here that? now I got witnesses so if he hurts me I can kill him. "Just Promise me one thing." he said intwining our fingers in each other. "Promise me, you won't ever hurt yourself again...please." I nodded my head slowly, wondering what I just got my self into. "C'mon bonita, let's get out of here." I don't know how I feel now about him calling me bonita. I smiled nodding my head. I walked in front of him and I felt a slap on my butt. I turned to him and he winked at me biting his bottom lip. Sweet baby Jesus....the boy is a freak 0__0...