さようなら
GOODBYE
hoseok
i saw something. something on yoongi's nightstand. it was a note. what note was it ? i slowly opened the paper folded into twos, only to find that it was his suicide note. he planned this. all of this. but why ?
" dear hoseok,
if you're ever reading this letter, i'm probably already dead. i'm sorry for this. i'm sorry for the times i lied to you. the truth hurts. i never ever gotten the sleep you asked me to get. i quit my job. i hurt myself every single day without fail. i have cuts and bruises all over my body. i didn't tell you about this at all. i have depression. it started a few years ago, but the hurting only started not long ago. i'm sorry for not telling you all this. i didn't want you to worry. i can't ever forgive myself for the lies i told you, the times i didn't listen to you, and keeping secrets from you... i hope your life would be better without a pathetic loser like me. i hope you are happy, and live your life the way you desire. i've never regretted meeting you, and i'll always remember you...this world was a cruel one for me, but you saved me. i just wanted to say thank you, for the times you spent with me, even when you are busy with your own life. thank you for everything,
jung hoseok.
— min yoongi "
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i crushed the piece of paper. i couldn't believe it. the fact that yoongi was gone. gone from this world. dead.
yoongi.
why are you dead ?
why aren't you alive ?
alive to spend time with me ?
i miss you yoongi...
don't leave me...
i love you...
